Kylie_Girl
Thank you all so much!
I wanted to post a new thread to share more of what finding my spiritual path has done for me. I posted re: the tarot and Christianity and i feel i need to tell you all more about how i got to this point.
I have been a regular at my village church since i was 12, but at that point i was obviously bored and frustrated (we use a King James Bible). We were only allowed to not attend church if we could prove beyond doubt that we were physically unable to do so - we were bought up by our Grandma when our mum died.
As the years went by and the bullying and school continued, i began to find solace within the church and started to enjoy the experience. I trained as a Sunday School Leader, then co lead it for about 4 years before virtually no attendance meant we had to call it a day. I became the youngest ever Churchwarden in our deanery and filled that role for 10 years. But in the last 2 years i could sense the opinions of those around me changing and i felt more and more of an outsider. I have Cerebral Palsy and over the years it has got harder and harder for me to get around,so i went to church less and often missed meetings as i was just too exhausted.
The atmosphere between me and the priest in charge deteriorated, she had no time for me and would refer to other congregation members as her "faithfuls". I soon realised that i no longer belonged there.
I resigned as Churchwarden and after my Grandma died last year i felt that i had no place there anymore.
Its important as this point that i say that i feel disallusioned with the "Institution" of the church, not with my faith. I have felt so lost and directionless with no hope of a fulfilling future, no longr able to drive or work i felt that my future looked bleak. Discovering my spiritual path has been completely life changing, i barely recognise myself, im happy, excited, hopeful, confident, at peace. I feel this is where i truely need to be, it feels so right and i feel so alive, more so than i can ever remember.
So thanks again to you all for so much wonderful advice and overwhelming support - Love you all xxxxxxxxxxxxx
I wanted to post a new thread to share more of what finding my spiritual path has done for me. I posted re: the tarot and Christianity and i feel i need to tell you all more about how i got to this point.
I have been a regular at my village church since i was 12, but at that point i was obviously bored and frustrated (we use a King James Bible). We were only allowed to not attend church if we could prove beyond doubt that we were physically unable to do so - we were bought up by our Grandma when our mum died.
As the years went by and the bullying and school continued, i began to find solace within the church and started to enjoy the experience. I trained as a Sunday School Leader, then co lead it for about 4 years before virtually no attendance meant we had to call it a day. I became the youngest ever Churchwarden in our deanery and filled that role for 10 years. But in the last 2 years i could sense the opinions of those around me changing and i felt more and more of an outsider. I have Cerebral Palsy and over the years it has got harder and harder for me to get around,so i went to church less and often missed meetings as i was just too exhausted.
The atmosphere between me and the priest in charge deteriorated, she had no time for me and would refer to other congregation members as her "faithfuls". I soon realised that i no longer belonged there.
I resigned as Churchwarden and after my Grandma died last year i felt that i had no place there anymore.
Its important as this point that i say that i feel disallusioned with the "Institution" of the church, not with my faith. I have felt so lost and directionless with no hope of a fulfilling future, no longr able to drive or work i felt that my future looked bleak. Discovering my spiritual path has been completely life changing, i barely recognise myself, im happy, excited, hopeful, confident, at peace. I feel this is where i truely need to be, it feels so right and i feel so alive, more so than i can ever remember.
So thanks again to you all for so much wonderful advice and overwhelming support - Love you all xxxxxxxxxxxxx