shutting down psychic impressions because of fear

[faunabay]

How many of you have an innate, subconscious fear of your psychic "powers"??? (whether you use them or not)

I've read things that say alot of us (psychics) were either in Atlantis, Lemuria, or the Salem witch trials in another life time. So we subconsciously (or consciously) fear our psychic impressions because they ultimately led to our deaths in those lives. We fear them at the same time we want to let them completely come out into the open.

There are many times when I'm doing a reading (tarot, scrying, psychic impressions, etc.) for someone and I can ALMOST get something but I think I block it somehow - even though I really am telling myself I want to "see" it. ?????

Anyone else have this happening to them??

[destinyawaitsme]

I don't know if this is the answer to your question, but here goes. When I was a child there were somethings that happened that I can't explain. I would see things, I would know things, I would hear things. I was scared to death. I couldn't explain it. So after a while these occurences disappeared. no more "imaginary friends", no more holograms, no more voices. Through my childhood, I started going to a very strict Christian church, and was taught that psychics were bad. They were burning in hell as we speak! Not until I was about 17 I opened back up to my abilities. I feel that they are there, but they are so hard to get back. One of the reasons is, everytime I practice, they come back and I get scared and they go away. I dont' know how to stop being afraid. I tell myself I want the abiliteis back, and they will come, but I shut them out because I get so scared.

[truthsayer]

i know i am uncomfortable with trusting my psychic impressions. so often they are right on target and i'd be better off to trust them. i really believe i was burned as a witch tho b/c it's something i can't get off my mind. i don't know if you've noticed but i find myself writing often in posts here how i'm afraid if the fundies in town figure out what i am they'll burn me at the stake. it may sound like i'm kidding around but it's a strong feeling of fear of discovery. so no i don't think you're crazy, faunabay.

[faunabay]

truthsayer,
I have noticed you saying things like that before and had wondered. You know what's interesting with me though is I think I was hung, not burned at the stake.
I think I just had an epiphany! LOL When I was younger I absolutely hated to have anything tight around my neck. I could not wear a turtleneck sweater to save me from freezing!! LOL But I just right this moment realized the more I let my psychic abilities out the less I am afraid of tight things around my neck. WOW!!!!
Which actually when I think about it should be the opposite, but it's not. (shrug) Maybe the holding it tightly inside was causing more of the fear than actually letting it out??? hmmmmmmmmmmm

[lunalafey]

Fear holds us humans back in any area. I to, can be afraid of what I might 'see' but for different reasons. The knowing was an ability that was prominent and open on my fathers side of the family. I was 11 when my Aunt showed me about reading cards, and she tested me. My mother would tell me stories about the things my father would say..So I have no fear of being ridiculed, the fear is, do I REALLY want to know. I had an incident that If I had known what I was to 'see', I would have made the choice to pass on the info, but in retrospect, it was better to know beforehand, it softened the hard blow of reality that was to come. It's kinda a catch 22, but I think overall it's best to open up and go with the flow. Working around the fear, that's a tough one. Even with my experiences, I still am resisting in some ways.
faunaB: Just like you, I can not STAND turtlenecks, though I don't think that was from being hung, I feel that I had been choked.

[Umbrae]

Guess this goes for both Physic self defense and Shutting Down.

When I was younger, I had no idea about shielding. I had no idea what was even “wrong” with me. I did not realize I was sensitive.

When I was in my early teens and began to explore, I too was bombarded with a lot of neg. input/energy.

Late teens I finally found someone to help me out (after years of stumbling around on my own). First think she said to me was, “Wow! You need to shield yourself, I can’t even look at you!”

It is two separate, yet related disciplines to shield yourself from others, and others from yourself.

Large crowds used to be tough (I’d have claustrophobic panic attacks). I’m okay now. What helped me was placing an object on my person in such a way as to always be aware of two things at once.

Focus.

To be aware of the external and internal simultaneously. That is what it took for me. It may work for others.

Years of fear...don't shut down. Learn to shield.

[Diana]

Umbrae: what kind of object do you mean? A gemstone, or a crystal, or a Tarot card? That kind of thing? Something visible like a ring that you see all the time, or something hidden on your person?

(Wait, no need to answer this. I'm editing this post because I've just seen your reply in the "Psychic Self-Defense Thread".)

[Umbrae]

It is okay...
Anything will do, normal jewelry, you get used to and "forget".
The idea here is to have a constant physical reminder (but not like a stone in the shoe) without discomfort.
A crystal in a bag under a waistband works.
Nowadays, I carry a stone in my pocket. It has been a while since I got past the constant reminder stage of defense/shielding.
A nice polished stone works just fine.
All I can say, is it works/d for me. Perhaps not for everyone.
For me it was diffucult to keep the light around be without forgetting and letting it down.

[zorya]

i had many, many psychic experiences when i was a kid. i really enjoyed them, until...... when i was about 11, and playing outside, my best friend and her mother drove by in their car. they honked and waved. as i started to wave i "saw them crash", i tried to scream and run after them, but they didn't see me. they did crash, while i was watching. luckily they got away with a broken leg, and hurt back. but i was angry. i couldn't understand why i saw this if i couldn't stop it. that was when my "visions" stopped. i started to connect again in high school but it wasn't until fairly recently that i've gotten anything "big". i think it has a lot to do with releasing many of the fears in my life not only my fears of the unknown. i still wonder why i see things i can't stop, but i no longer have any fear or anger about it.
i also believe that i died, in a former life, by fire. when i was about 8 , my father would make me burn the garbage. he'd hand me the paper matches, and i would cry and scream, terrified of the fire.
i also wake up sometimes, smelling a strong smell of smoke, in the house that no one else can smell.
sorry for the rambling :)

[jade]

sometimes dealing with different 'entities' has scared me, but i haven't been afraid during a reading etc.

i guess we all just process things differently. i see fear as being more.......afraid to go there and see what you could see. new students to enlightenment are often afraid of what they may start experiencing and so when they do see a fairie or spirit or guide they run and hide LOL..........

hmmm.........all of your answers are something to think about. thanks for sharing.

in light,
jade

[phirefly]

what i've experienced is similar to what others have mentioned. when i was very young, i had a horrifying (though oddly cold) prophetic dream, and i'm sure that's where my fear of knowing started. when i was in college though, i saw another thing that i thought was just way too much, and i really wished i hadn't known... so i just stopped listening. it isn't to say i stopped receiving things, because i'm sure i did, but i just passed it off as nonsense or my poor memory filling in gaps or my overactive imagination. it's only been very recently that i've found other people somewhat like me (excluding my brother (who is my spiritual balance... which is probably another post entirely), but including two empaths and a color (aura?) seer) and started to open up again. i've found it hard to start again. over the past few years, i just set my mind to ignore all the extra information, and now i tend to second myself a lot.

so, i guess my fear comes from experiences in this life rather than others. still, i understand how fear can hold you back. you just need to learn to trust yourself, and maybe find some friends with whom you feel safe being yourself.

much luck :}

[Spasticgirlie]

I have to say, when I was younger, and I am not really that old right now that I dont recall ever having any "strange" occurances. I do recall that if I were to wish on a star that it would come true but end up badly. But I dont think that is really psychic. Sorry if I spell a lot of things wrong, I am a horrible speller. And there was one time in life I remember waking up saying what my goal in this life was, but then I forgot it! Now that was weird. Yet, recently I did start getting really negative, or unusual feelings in my house. It turned out to be a not good thing but my friends helped me take care of it. Some of it had to do with this really huge mirror in my room that has frightened me ever since I was little. For the longest time I havent looked into the mirror when it was dark. I know Im weird. And yes I do fear any psychic powers that I may have, but at the same time I dont. I want to develop any that I may have, but I also fear that I may not actually have any. Oh and I have a protection stone in my pocket. I picked the prettiest one ( my friends are helping me learn wiccan because I am relatively new). And this stone is to help me remember my shield that I have placed around myself. I also have one on my room. But yeah, shields are a whole other thread. Sorry for making this so long.

[Angel Star]

Well now i can totally relate i often have a fear of choking or that I was choked or suffocated or what have you about not being able to breath. Just recently I had 2 nightmares where I could not breath and woke up feeling as if i was dieing. I am not afraid of seeing things or knowing things actually I am quite on the opposite end. I really don't care what anyone thinks of my psychic self and am not afraid at all. But there are times I feel too much and need to shut down for awhile. They say alot of psychics are afraid to shut down at times and that is not good either. Its like learning to turn the on and off button on the T.V. Maybe I am a bit on the eccentric side but too all those who posted try not to be afraid I know sometimes its not easy but this is my motto because I lived in fear of so many other things in the past "I am not going to let fear stand in the way of a very beautiful gift that we all have" but it just needs to be developed if we so choose to do so. Light and Love to all :)

[floracove]

This is so wild, because all my life I have felt totally different from everybody especially my Family.
I have not to long ago realized that something I thought was a dream in my childhood was real...
My father was in the Army and we were hardly ever around our family(aunts uncles cousins ect) We left for Alaska when I was 9months old and returned when I was 4 yrs old... (now this seems strange to be telling, because I thought It was a dream for over 30 years) When we came home we were at my Maw maw's house and in one of the bedrooms there was an old small coocoo clock and I was in this room and a woman was talking to me(I was alone as far as anyone could see) but she was there and I was talking to her and they came in to see who I was talking to and I told them here name was "Elzada" and the clock started coocooing and it really freaked them out because this clock had stopped working when this lady died and she was my Great grand mother who died before I was born... and they have always treated me different from all the rest, they'll tell you they ahven't but THEY HAVE...
And have let me belive that there was something wrong with me .
And I remember when I was a child putting my hands up to my neck for protection in my sleep...

[Spasticgirlie]

I think it was this thread or another one that I was reading when I remembered something weird that happens to me sometimes. But i sometimes get rather weird deja vus. Like something will happen and for the life of me I think something like that has happened before, or maybe not even think about it and then later on like hours, or days, or something Ill be like oh yeah deja vu. Like it had slipped out of my mind or something. In fact I dont really recall that happening lately.

What was weird though, I cam home last night around 11 and my mom asked me about it this morning for what time I came home. And my dad told her that I had someone in my room. Now I dont even recall talking to anyone while I was awake. And I sleep with my light on....call me crazy but I have reasons. So I was like nope I was alone. I didnt think to ask my dad about it, but it would be interesting to know why he thought I had someone in my room. I mean that would involve two voices I would think.........

[Angel Star]

This is in response the Floracove I hope I spelled that right. I know what you mean my family has always said I am weird and I like weird things. Like I am the black sheep or something and for so long I used to take this so personal and feel so inadequate about it but then when I started my studies in metaphysics,witchcraft, tarot and other spiritual subjects I found out there was never anything wrong with me except being on the eccentric side alot. Yes us psychics or empathics are a little different but no more than others who have there special personalities its just in this society alot frown on the "unknown" and mostly they fear what they do not understand. Now that everyone knows what I do they do not try to intimidate me on my spiritual path this is who I am and that is all. My younger brother comes to get readings from me and so does alot of the rest of family that are open to that kind of thing. Follow your path and you will find that you not so different from others that are like minded Love and light :)

[phirefly]

spasticgirlie:

i get deja vu over the most inane things. like having a conversation with my brother while driving down the road. suddenly i just know what he's going to say because i've heard him say it before. we're never discussing relevant things. it seems so silly to have deja vu over something so unimportant, but it happens to me all the time, with lots of different people. sometimes i wonder if i've really heard it before or if i'm just seriously psychicly in tune at the moment...

i can't decide which thought is scarier.

[floracove]

S.girlie,
I have a lot to learn...(no doubt)
I do want to say to you; in my opinion...
do not be afraid of it,
it is a part of you that comes from deep within you and if you try to fight a power that is your own it can make you nuts...(I'm not saying that you are, understand)
It's just that by owning what IS yours, it will help you grow to be what was ordained before your birth...
I believe that we chose our gifts and shortcoming before we come here and by embracing what we are we will be better...
of course I realize that is easier to say than to do and that is because at this time we are only human...
and I wish you all the good things that are to come...
Be patient and it will be OK

[Angel Star]

Sgirl I get deja vu spells alot also. They are truly weird but I like it. Its really weird though cause you are like did this happen or am I trippin? :)

[Spasticgirlie]

Yeah Deb E. They are really trippy like, and its weirder when you get the deja vu a few days later out of no where due to something that happened earlier in the week.

[truthsayer]

i don't know if this is the right place to post this or not but this thread reminds me of some links a friend sent me recently about the changing vibrations of the earth from the 3rd dimension to the 5th. this is why some of us are feeling more psychicly open. i've also read these theories in the celestine prophesies by redfield.

http://www.newage.com.au/ascension.html

http://www.aloha.net/~ruth/Ascension.html

http://jksalescompany.com/ken/star.html

anyhow, it's just a thought i had about what could be happening to many of us at another level. maybe having this idea will help ease any fear b/c there are earth changes coming and we have to change, too. i don't know whether i believe everything i read but info like this i've heard from various souces for around 20 years. so i think there is something behind it but i don't understand what. i do think there is a strong possibility why i have developed such a difficulty tolerating the massive energies in public. it's too overwhelming. i prefer small groups to individuals to being alone. what i sense in public just causes me too much fear. i've learned i have to trust my intuition about this b/c when i don't i get physically ill. this also seems to be part of the changing earth patterns based on what i've read.

call me crazy if you want but i thought i'd share this possible explanation for how we are feeling psychicly these days.

[Angel Star]

I just had a deja va like last week and now I can't even remember what it was about I mostly they are so vague to me. Like sitting down talking in my living room over a certain subject and then for a few seconds all of a sudden I feel like I am back in time or something and this was already said and done go figure :P It is truely weirdo experience and them I am tripping and saying "This so feels like this happened but I don't know when" This is a rather interesting topic deja vu it reminds me of time travel kind of.

[Spasticgirlie]

Ok I read those webpages, and I am clueless about this ascension thing. But I must admitt that what I read frightens me. It may be because I dont understand it or that it sounds like its saying that I am going to die and really soon. Ekk could someone please please clarify it for me?!

[truthsayer]

gosh! i'm so sorry SG! i didn't mean to scare you! i can't think how to explain it to you at the moment except like this. hope this doesn't confuse you worse.

are you familiar w/ how different atoms of different chemicals vibrate at different speeds? we are all made of atoms. depending on our spiritual development, our "energy" vibrates at a different rate. as the earth's vibration changes, some ppl's vibes are changing to keep up w/ changes in the earth's energy. some ppl aren't changing w/ the earth changes. if you feel like you are growing more sensitive or psychic then chances are your vibes are changing in time w/ the earth's. doesn't mean we are all changing at the same pace. depends we were are at in our spiritual development.

there are several different dimensions. the one we are most familiar w/ is our 3D world. a painting that looks flat is one dimensional. more advanced worlds have a higher vibrational frequency. some ppl believe that this is what the "ufo" phenomenon is all about. ppl's from different planets have come to help us save the earth by raising our vibrational frequency to become more aware of what a mess the earth is becoming. the more in tune we become the more intuitive we become or something like that.

does that help? reading the celestine prophesy by james redfield really breaks this down to a simpler to understand theory. the writing style has to be one of the worst i've ever read but it's worth it to get the ideas. it makes our growing intuitiveness make more sense.

[Spasticgirlie]

So your kinda saying that since I have very recently become highly interested in tarot and wicca and all that other fun stuff, that I may be starting to vibrate at a higher level?

I just want to make sure Im getting this.

[truthsayer]

uuuuuummmmm, i think yes b/c you are exploring a spiritual path. the specific path isn't as important as the urge to understand yourself and the world around you better and an interest in making the world a better place.

[Spasticgirlie]

All right I think I see what your getting at. I recently did help get rid of some evil in the world that just happened be located in my house. And let me tell you those feelings are scary. Leaping over a dark hall to get to another lit up room is not fun. I still do it actually but I think now Im just paranoid, or something else is here all over again.........ugh.

[Angel Star]

I know what you mean sometimes with alot of psychic energies flying about it tends to put some on the defense and wondering if their being paranoid. This has happened to me alot. If I posted my thread on the kind of psychic stuff that has gone on in my home gee I don't know some probably think I imagined it but no I have not. Try reading Psychic Protection by Ted Andrews Sgirlie its very good book and the techniques are easy. Sounds like you may need some grounding and cleansing of your home. Frankincense and Myrrh perhaps. :)

[Spasticgirlie]

There has been some cleansing of my house actually. And I have been taught to shield myself and my room. Which both are up right now as we speak. Yay.