part 2.. Visions

Thread originally posted on the Aeclectic Tarot Forum on 23 Dec 2001, and now archived in the Forum Library.

Diff4rent	23 Dec 2001
but then i gave them to her... then i realized that the reading i did was at 12 20 am.. so i still had the whole day left.. and i didn't realize this.. I went that night to try and stop her from going out thinking something bad was going to happen to her because i wasn't sure if i know how to read the cards or not.. but her mom said she would prove to me that she would be ok.... so i let her go... ...... the next day i felt like something was wrong, a bad feeling.. and i wanted the deck back... i tried to tell her to give it to me without asking.. but she played dumb at least i thought.. and then i ended up telling her, because i dont know myself..and have no confidence in myself.. well.then she told me that it didn't matter, giving the deck back is the same as willingly giving it back. So right after that.. i started getting sick.. I felt like throwing up a little dizzy, then my throat started hurting. after all of this i cant sleep, and i dont know what to do.. and who to trust....... and i feel alone. Maybe i'm just letting this get to me,.. but i feel that if i ignore it it's bad for humanity or pagans if thats what i am. .. right after i did my reading i got a messege asking me what my education was.. i didn't understand.. and i thought it was someone trying to hack into my computer... I tried to find out about my past for along time, thinking maybe i'm pagan..... but I dont know, My g/f says she was into tarot.. but isn't anymore because she thinks they dont work and they're a game... During our whole relationship .. she's always told me that she felt thesame way that i feel about her.. but she's never came out and said how much she likes me.. and i dont think she's even said she loves me, she always evades the word I ... and YOU ...

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