gift readings

Thread originally posted on the Aeclectic Tarot Forum on 28 Jun 2002, and now archived in the Forum Library.

truthsayer	28 Jun 2002
i have a friend whose birthday is july 1st. we live too far for me to just swing by her house to do a reading but i really wanted to give her a birthday reading. so i got out my trust dusty tape recorder and taped an hour long reading. i used several different decks and spreads. what really amazed me was that i could see how each readings flowed into the next part. i really enjoyed playing it back and hearing what i said to her. it felt strange to hear myself do a reading but i think this is something i'm going to do more often. i'm looking forward to hearing my friend's reaction to my gift. what's really interesting about this whole thing is someone i met in a dream told me to tape a reading for this particular person. the fact the idea came to me in a dream makes me even more curious about the end result. will i be doing more readings like this? it would make sense b/c i want to do live readings but i live in such a conservative area that it's not practical. i've done them on the internet live but that can be difficult. for one my cat wants to lie in front of my computer screen while i'm online. that means no place to put my cards. <<>>yes, i let my cat push me around! LOL at least if i tape i can shut the cats out. they do so love to jump in the cards and scatter them to my frustration. ;) i want to try doing a taped reading for myself. i think if i disengage my mind to do the reading, when i play it back i will get more information than i do by just journaling or reading the cards to myself. then i can go back to my journal and write down the gist of the reading for prosperity. :) have any of you tried this? what was your experience?

jema	28 Jun 2002
i have never tried it - don't own a good tape-recorder right now. but i have often thought about it. it sounds like such a great idea - where you get a lot more flow in the reading then when you write it down. this way your mind and spirit don't have to translate your intuition by the way of the keyboard. after all, speach does come a lot more natural then typing. i do know of someone who used one of them speach-programs with her computer when she did the readings and then just read it through and corrected the errors afterwards. still, with a taperecorder you can do readings anywhere. and that is a bonus. also as a client it must be neat to have the reading on tape. i had a seance taped once and still got the tape to this day (it was 15 years ago) only problem i see is that i have this really tiny squeeky little voice;) but i am told that is only in my head...

Kaz	28 Jun 2002
truthsayer, i have never done a tape reading, but this is a really great gift to your friend :-) kaz

Starfish	28 Jun 2002
Truthsayer - I also have never done a taped reading but also agree that it's a great gift for your friend. :T10C Starfish

aeonx	28 Jun 2002
I have never thought about doing a tape-reading for myself. Great idéa! I have, though, gotten a tape-reading. It's excellent! So now and then I dig it out of my drawer and listen to it. It's the most significant reading I've ever gotten, so I'm very grateful I have it on tape. :) Btw, do you know that person that gave you the advice in the dream? ~aeonx~

truthsayer	28 Jun 2002
i probably know the dreamland person when i'm asleep but when i'm awake the dreamland ppl keep themselves secret. i know at the time i knew who it was but when i woke all that was left was the message. ;)

mondk	29 Jun 2002
Just a thought since I'm a big dream analyzer myself...but the "voice" you heard in your dream was probably your subconscious. Or, higher self, as others refer to it. It is good imo, that you pay attention to your dreams; your higher self will so love you for it!!! Blessings to all, Michelle

truthsayer	29 Jun 2002
thank-you, mondk! that's probably what it was. so if i might ask another question, sometimes in my sleep i talk LOUDLY, according to my husband. sometimes i yell, sometimes i curse, sometimes i argue, sometimes i'm afraid-pant & scream, and others i just talk. he said i say things in my sleep that i never say in my waking life. that's what both surprized and concerns me. could that be w/ my higher self? if it is, isn't it kind of strange to argue and curse at your higher self in your sleep? i also have these dreams where i'm having the most intense conversation w/ someone. i tell the person--"this makes so much sense! things would be so much easier if i remember this waking up!" but i never or rarely remember a thing when i wake up. this has been going on at least 15 years and gets a tad frustrating at times. that's why i was so happy to at least remember being told to tape the reading!

mondk	29 Jun 2002
Wow; you sound as if you have a lot of pent-up stress in there in your conscious mind; sounds as if your subsconscious has its hands full when you are asleep. I highly recommend you consider starting a dream journal...it is a really good way to wake up in the morning or whenever, and write down as much of your dreams as you can remember right then...this should take some of the intense stress off and can be good to look back over your dreams and see just what kind of things your higher self is wanting you to face in waking. Let me know how it goes...blessings, Michelle

truthsayer	30 Jun 2002
i keep thinking i need to start a dream journal but i haven't b/c i only remember the feelings. i guess i could write down what i'm feeling and see if that churns anything up. i'm not having the angry kind of dream as much as i was a year or more ago. at the time, i was pretty upset at some ppl that i couldn't confront. lately, it's been more of dreams like the dream telling me to tape readings or some juicy bit of info that i know in my sleeping mind will solve some problems. it would be nice if i remembered them enough to turn the light on and write but the more conscious i get the more the dream slips away. learning how to sleep write would be nice. i'd ask my husband to tape these "conversations" if he were awake enough to do it. i think i'll probably keep getting as much info as i need to know. i will try to write what i can even if it's just a feeling. i know you have to train yourself to remember dreams. i know it probably sounds crazy but i can usually tell if i'm talking to a dream person or if i'm really talking to someone in the dream. at least that's what it feels like. did that make any sense? the idea of my unconscious mind having it's hands full at night is kind of funny. i have been doing more writing, tarot readings and art. since then i've slept better. the creative process seems to ease my inner tensions a lot!

truthsayer	27 Jul 2002
i really don't know where to post what has since happened w/ the gift reading. if it's not in the right place, i'm clueless! my friend sent me an email thanking me and that what she had heard of the reading thus far was right on. well, she was giving a workshop last weekend that i attended as did 3 others. i felt pretty good about the workshop til the end. we were supposed to do a meditation where we asked for guidance for one of the other participants. what i got was really intense but it was something i've experienced before and i handled it. i put her in the loving hand of spirit. i knew she had chakra blockages, etc. so when "we came back" i told her. she burst into tears and i did what i could to help her. she was very appreciative of the insight i gave her. i felt good that a talent i have for healing has come back after a 3 year hiatus. plus i stayed strong and centered in my body despite the strength of her pain. i felt this lady's energy was much better than when we began. in helping her, i got validation from the universe that things are going to be alright for me. but i sensed some how my friend felt i had played her up when she was the group leader. i didn't do it on purpose. i took care of what i was sent b/c i knew how. my friend mentioned to her i do tarot readings as we were cleaning up. i was feeling really great about the workshop but as ppl left i began to feel darker energy moving in. i realized my friend was extremely depressed and not feeling well. i kept trying to say supportive things to her but i felt most of my attempts were blocked. i wanted so much to reach out to her and help so i asked her if she wanted reading before i left. she indicated it would be nice. then she said she hadn't finished to the tape i had sent her b/c she didn't like hearing someone say to her the things i was saying but since it was me it might be okay. i just crashed and burned b/c i had hoped to help her. i thought the overall taped reading was positive. in a nut shell, it showed she was hitting bottom but things were going to get better. the energy just got worse until i left. we had decided beforehand that i was staying overnight and doing something together in the am. she obviously felt worse in the morning. i didn't say anything else about the reading and she didn't mention it again. i felt strongly that she had decided that she couldn't hear more at that which is cool w/ me. i sensed so much nonverbal communication from her. i didn't always know exactly what it meant but something bad was happening. when she walked me to my car when i left, i asked her what was wrong and she apologized and said it wasn't me so not to be offended. i wasn't offended as in angry, pride hurt. i hurt b/c i was getting all this intuitive info but i knew better than to verbalize it. when i got back i emailed her to let her know that i was home but i added that if the tape upset her not to listen. i wanted her to talk to me if she needed someone to listen or care. plus if i had overstayed my welcome i hoped that we had known each other long enough she would tell me. she hasn't replied and it's almost been a week. we were planning to drive to go to a con together in a few weeks. now my intuition is literally screaming at me DON'T GO WITH HER!!!!!! i don't understand why but i think i'll do a clarity reading about it. i'm not so narcisstic that i think i caused her problem but i also sense that something in this has to do w/ me and the reading and other things. i'm not sure i'm altogether cancelling my trip but i have decided to listen to my intuition. if it's meant, a way will present itself. something is wrong here that i need to step back from. if she wants my help she will ask. if i'm truly welcome to go w/ her, i need a more positive sign from her. i've already made my decision as to how i'm handling this but i felt the need to tell someone who might understand what happened. i just need to be heard so i can fight my way out of my hurt and confusion. there's a lot more to the situation that i'm not saying b/c all of this isn't mine to tell. telling this much is a vast relief to me. thanks for reading the story.

Diana	27 Jul 2002
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RedWood	27 Jul 2002
Wow truthsayer...I do hope you figure something out with that woman..and definately listen to your intuition..Glad you feel better writing the story...we are always here for you!

wetsheep1	27 Jul 2002
I'm so sorry that this negativity has intruded on your friendship, and I can sympathize with your position. Sometimes readings are tough; I know my own deck is pretty freaking blunt and I have to be sensitive and careful about how I present their information. If I'm doing a reading for myself, no big deal; sometimes I need that kick in the pants from my HP! But when it's someone else, I really have to take extreme care. I'm not in their skin, and intuition/empathy or not, I can't always be sure where their head's at and whether or not they're ready to accept some hard truths about themselves. And let's face it; since the cards tend to talk about what's going on deep inside, it's difficult to hear someone else talk about the things you thought you had hidden away. I hope your friend decides to get to know and accept her shadow-self. It's a terrible thing to live only on the surface. It's hard because I know you sooooooooo want to help, but this seems to be one of those cases where you can only own your own part of this and let her deal with the rest in her own time. Time and love are, in themselves, powerful tools. Please take good care. I'm sending healing energy your way :) and hoping things will look up for you. Blessings, -- k

vision	27 Jul 2002
hi truthsayer, Thank you very much for sharing your experience. First of all, your dream and your initiative to listen and done the tape reading, different spread one after the other.... is inspiring. I feel that you've done... or doing the right thing and you will be using your gift more in this way. You have strong intuition and developing a good connection with your higher self so I'd listen to that voice saying 'Don't go to....'. But just to test its validity, be open to how it's going to unfold. 'Do you get through to your friend at all?', 'How is her mood?', 'How do you feel about it' etc near the time. If it seem blocked or have difficulty, i think it's a sign that your voice is telling you the truth. Like your friend now, sometime ppl can't or don't want to take the information provided and these times, we need to step back and just pray for them, no matter how much you'd like to help. I am sure you know all of these things... but I just wanted to point out. With love Vision

Jenny-Li	27 Jul 2002
These are the things that make relations and friendship so difficult sometimes... Standing at the side, not quite knowing what do do, whether to stand back or to get involved, whether to try to figure out the right things to say or to just shut up... I don't envy you your situation, but if it's any consolation your story is indeed inspiritng, you seem very in touch with your intuition, just like Vision says. I suppose your story also goes to say the gift can be a blessing as well as a curse... I wish you balance and light to handle the future events in this matter. Light and love, Jenny :)

Laurel	27 Jul 2002
I recently picked up Dragon Magically Speaking 6 (A Voice Recognition Program) with a Voice mobile recorder that I can use to transcribe while away from my computer. It hadn't occurred to be to use it for tarot readings but that would be perfect! I think making those tapes for your friend was a wonderful gift. Recently a old friend had a dream about me, where he was told that I was sick and needed him- and that was accurate. It was this friend, in fact, who got me reinvolved in the tarot, just by showing back up in my life and giving me a reading. :) Laurel

vision	27 Jul 2002
Quote: I suppose your story also goes to say the gift can be a blessing as well as a curse... I've been contemplating on this particular subject. :D Vision

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