My mythic journey

Thread originally posted on the Aeclectic Tarot Forum on 28 Aug 2002, and now archived in the Forum Library.

Tor	28 Aug 2002
Hello all! I just wanted to tell you about my last journey and the experiences I had with it. I took a plane from Sandefjord to Forde (Norway this is) where a friend would meet me at the airport. Forde is part of the western part of Norway, with all it's fjords, rivers and mountains. As I sat in the plane, prepared for the landing, I looked out the window. And there it was - the most mythic landscape I've seen. High mountains went from the fjord to the clouds, and along the mountainside there were waterfalls. We were going to land on a small airport situated at the top of a flat mountain. There were barely no trees there, just a swampy landscape due to the mist that usually covers it. And the mist and fog that was spread around the landscape like small clouds. I thought this was going to be a great journey! The next day my friend and I were going to Sandane - a small place were my father was born and where my grandparents on his side is buried. I thought this was a good idea, cause I'm working on my grounding.... and what would be better to seek out my roots!? Well, we got there after 1 hour of driving.... along the way we drove through the most beautiful place I know - a valley called "Vaatedalen" or Wet Valley. This was truly the best part of the trip, cause when we got to Sandane, I was so depressed. I bought a red rose to bring to my grandmothers grave, but when I got there.... all I was thinking of was to get away from this place. The small town was very changed since my childhood, and the good memories I had vanished after a short time. So we left soon after, and I had a small crisis on our way back. So depressed... Therefore - the next day I went to Bergen - a big city (when it comes to norwegian city sizes) and the capitol of western Norway. There I enjoyed the city life, a luxury hotel, internett cafe and found a amrket where they sold crystals and gemstones (I went bananas there - LOL). After to nights in Bergen I took the 8 hours trainjourney back to Sandefjord. What I really learned after this trip, is that sometimes our roots is not good enough - and we need to plant another tree and start allover. My family on my fathers side is full of depressions, and I can see why. It's like a original sin.... I want to break this chain. My trip to my roots gave me a clear thought: To plant a new tree, forget the past and look forward. The lessons is the same as Lot's wife got in The Bible. Don't you ever look back.... Thank you for your attention! :)

Diana	28 Aug 2002
Quote: Originally posted by Balder My family on my fathers side is full of depressions, and I can see why. It's like a original sin.... I want to break this chain. My trip to my roots gave me a clear thought: To plant a new tree, forget the past and look forward. The lessons is the same as Lot's wife got in The Bible. Don't you ever look back.... Thank you for your attention! :) Balder: I was certainly attentive from beginning to end. You tell good stories. You know, if you break the chain here, you will probably help not only yourself, but also the future generations. Sometimes someone has to be strong enough to say "this is enough". And cut the ties. Sometimes the past becomes too heavy, there are too many things to carry. Can I share a little story with you? A few years ago, I went through one of those hell times. You know, depression, panic attacks, stuff like that. I decided to do some psychotherapy in order to find out what was going on. During the first session, the therapist asked me to tell me a bit about my life, my parents' lives, their parents lives, and their parents, and so on and so on. After a while, she stopped me and said "Diana, when you talk, I have a picture very clearly in my mind. I see generations of fathers, grandfathers, great-grandfathers, etc. People who have constantly had to leave their countries, exile themselves, and then leave again. Sometimes with a just a little suitcase. And you have done the same. I see generations of people who have decided that it will be your task to continue this habit, this karmic pattern. They have put this task on your shoulders, and you have decided to accept this, accepting it is a gift, or at least as your destiny. But it is getting too heavy. Now either you decide to close the last chapter of this book, and close the book once and for all. Or else you continue carrying the burden, and you'll pass this task onto your son, and he'll pass it onto his son, until someone breaks the chain. It is up to you. What will you decide?" It was hard. But I broke the chains of the past. We will never be exiles ever again. I know it. If you break the chains, you are not betraying. You are releasing. And how free one feels when the past is no longer attached to our feet like a ball and chain.

debins	28 Aug 2002
With reference to quote: sometimes our roots is not good enough - and we need to plant another tree and start all over./quote I have had similar experiences with my family without my having gone anywhere. Actually, only yesterday I took advantage of sharing a day off with my 80 year old mother, taking her shopping to unique places, sharing lunch in a pretty tea room, etc. But I came home with a raging headache--in truth, partly because the sun was intense, and partly because my menstrual cycle had begun, but there was in addition to my horrible head pain an aggravating sense of depression that had to do with my mother's values, interests, and focus differing from mine, or should I say mine differing from hers. We share our views but I'm afraid I find hers, and those of my birth family, narrow, somewhat bigotted and over all negative and limiting. I try to be positive and offer newer views, and try to lend refreshment, but still I come away feeling enervated and negative. I think I have planted that tree and I think I have started all over, but the visits to the past still burden me in an odd way. I have yet to learn how to visit and still remain "well" and balanced. Has anyone suggestions on how to deal with such things? Namaste, Debins.

amyel	28 Aug 2002
Quote: Originally posted by Balder What I really learned after this trip, is that sometimes our roots is not good enough - and we need to plant another tree and start allover. Balder, this is very well put. I like the visual it placed in my brain....

jade	29 Aug 2002
sending healing energy, whatever kind you practise, back to your parents and grand-parents can assist in breaking these karmic binds and pathways. affirmations is another great way to change past dis-function. but i like the idea of planting a new tree.....and making it literal as well. go out, choose a tree to represent your future and then plant it. if you don't have the room, find a friend or neighbour who does and 'gift' them the tree. plant it in the ground and say a little something when you place it's root ball into the earth. :D a lovely way to heal. love jade

mara	29 Aug 2002
Quote: Originally posted by Balder My family on my fathers side is full of depressions, and I can see why. It's like a original sin.... I want to break this chain. My trip to my roots gave me a clear thought: To plant a new tree, forget the past and look forward. The lessons is the same as Lot's wife got in The Bible. Don't you ever look back.... Thank you for your attention! :) Sometimes our parent teach us how 'not' to be ;), just by them being who they are. Respect your parents for they are the ones that raised you. But that does not mean you have to follow their way of life. Norway the way that you described it sounds beautiful and is definately on my list of places to see. Love and Light Mara

DarkElectric	29 Aug 2002
Hi Balder I think your advice to plant a new tree is very good. Debins, herin lies an answer for both of us, too. I have realised, after living away from home a while, that even though I share some basic values with my family, I have noticed a definite trend towards bigotry, rigidity, and stuff I don't agree with on their part. I think I always had a problem with these "anti values" but now that I am in my own place, I am able to create my own world with the things I value, and discard those anti values, without attempting to belabour a point to deaf ears. I don't even argue with them anymore, I just tell them I love them, gotta go, and either leave, or hang up. This is how I plant a new tree. I get depressed talking to my folks sometimes, hearing them spew Republican party rhetoric, and other stuff I consider utter nonsense. My new tree is me, and I'm planting it right here! The past is not all good, and nostalgic. Balder, I think you accomplished the magical journey you set out to have. You got to the heart of one of the mysteries of time. That we tend to see the past as better than the now. But that isn't always true, and we at least have a great opportunity to change our future for the better. Thanks, Balder!

starr	30 Aug 2002
Oft times "going home" just can't be done. Too much has changed and we must fing out own way. The decinsiion to break the chain is the pivotal step. You found wonders on the way(that's the optimist). Starr

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