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Thread originally posted on the Aeclectic Tarot Forum on 02 May 2002, and now archived in the Forum Library.

Spasticgirlie	02 May 2002
If you were typing someone to tell them about something that wasnt good and you started feeling weirdish about it and started to think that you were seeing something in the corner of your eye that is more whitish than black what would you think that is? Paranoia maybe. Because I am sitting in my room and I keep feeling as though something is over there even though there are white things in that area..............

cricket	03 May 2002
It could be some sort of protective spirit...

kayne	03 May 2002
Try talking to it... see or feel if something happens. If it is annoying you, you might ask it to leave you alone...

Liliana	03 May 2002
Id think my guardian angel was watching over me

Butterfly	03 May 2002
Spasticgirlie, here is some advice, it may apply to you, it may not. But I would be ignoring my intuition if I did not at least say it. You are at a curious age and it's hard to make any generalisations. I love your curiosity. the amount of energy and information you suck in is both lovely and a little difficult. I see you reaching and grasping for info and "contact" with spiritual things and I am so impressed. That is bound to take you far. But one has to put in a lot of groundwork, especially at your age, to make sure they are strong and ready. People like Kiama can probably give you more insight into this (she has it so right for her age!), but without the strength and preparation adolescents don't often have the control over situation that they need to make this contact a good and positive one. As I said, you can absolutely not make generalisations about teenagers, but I feel in your case, you may be jumping in the deep end. My suggestion is that you concentrate on learning how to raise your vibrations- practice meditation, learn all you can about grounding, centring, protection, strengthening your self. Many Pagan traditions have a rule that you must study for a year and a day before trying your hand at magick. Not a bad rule at all. It means when you come to try anything, you are prepared, protected and guided by higher beings. I'm not saying to turn away from the spiritual, it's obviously the place for you. But work on preparing and strengtheneing yourself. Your expereience will be all the better for it. I give you this advice with lot's of love and light. Please think seriously about it.

Spasticgirlie	04 May 2002
Butterfly, I must say I honestly see where you are coming from. I feel sometimes that things are way over my head. This is probably more so because I was thrown in it way before I was ready. Actually what I was trying to explain is what got me thrown in with the spiritual world when I got the notion that I shouldnt really tell any more people than all ready know. I was just really starting to get all I really really shouldnt say and the more I typed the worse feeling it got. So thus I erased what I said and told the person I couldnt tell them because something was telling me not too. When it comes to magick the only ritual I have performed, under the guidance of older and much more experienced than I, was getting a stone which I carry in my pocket blessed by the goddess. This was the night they taught me how to sheild myself and the stone is a reinforcer of that. Some day I wont need the stone to reinforce, and when that day comes it will be gone and missing. Also I have gone on a journey, which was a meditative thing under the guidance of the same person. I met my faery guide here, or at least I believe the faery in charge of my faery oracle deck. But I am not ready to let myself just go on a journey on my own. However when I posted this yesterday it was rather a weird feeling. Yet I have also been taught how to shield my room and it is. So I am totally assuming that what was telling me not to share was something good. And later when I was getting ready for bed I saw a flash in the corner of my eye. So I think it was a faery. I am not sure though. Butterfly I think you are totally right when you say I should take it slowly into spirtuality. I am finding wicca a calling for me, but I know I am not ready to cast my own circle and perform my ritual. And I have studied it on and off for a few years. I really wish I hadnt been thrown into what I was. It was highly frightening for me and I didnt know what to do so my friends took care of it for me and I thank them very much. If I could explain to you what actually happened it would make everything so much easier to understand. But I cant..... I am probably just about as confused as anyone who has just read this message.

jade	04 May 2002
i think you explained yourself beautifully! :D AND you took butterfly's message exactly as she intended....with light and love. aaahhh, you will become such a beam of light.....take your time and follow your heart, since it is leading you in the right direction already. love jade :D

Butterfly	04 May 2002
Well, thank you for considering my advice. I don't know your circumstances, but I can see you are confused and are seeking help in the right places! I'm glad you found your path, take it slow, practice protection, strengthen yourself, you'll be teaching us in no time!!

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