Spiritual Awakening

Thread originally posted on the Aeclectic Tarot Forum on 12 Oct 2002, and now archived in the Forum Library.

Kiama	12 Oct 2002
Hi All! I'll try and be as clear as possible with this. I've tried explaining it to about 4 people so far, and only 1 has understood me, but that's cuz he's one through the same thing as me. Recently I experienced what scholars would call a 'mystical experience'. The thing is, a normal mystical experience lasts only a minute or two, sometimes only a few seconds. My experience lasted a short time, but the effects haven't gone away, and it feels like I am in a permanent state of mystical experience... I 'See' inner beauty, but it's not a 'seeing' like with the eyes. I would kinda say it's like a sense of a feeling of the inner beauty, but it's more visual than that... I don't know which sense I am using to perceive this inner beauty. It's weird. And I see this inner beauty in every single person I look at, and everywhere around me, in the natural world, and when it is particularly stron in some people and places it acts as a sort of web, holding everything together... And from the day I had the initial experience, I have felt pure joy and the sudden urge to give love to everybody. I have learned to love myself. I have learned to love others. I have learned to forgive. Now I feel I have so much love inside me that if I don't give it to people I will just explode. I also feel a desperate urge to comfort and heal those that need it, and I have recently been able to see where somebody/something needs healing the most... It looks kinda like a void that needs filling... And when I feel and see all these things I just cannot hold all the wonderfulness inside me, and I just cry and cry and cry for joy... And nothing seems too difficult, and nothing seems so bad that I cannot learn from it... And I feel so complete within myself and confident in myself. I feel as though I can do anything I want to, and achieve everything I want to... And I am being 'guided' to people who need me, and who understand me and who I feel very close to and comfortable with. They are people who I can grow with and learn with, and also people who understand the need to give others love freely. Suddenly, I understand so many things which I didn't before, and nearly all of my mental blocks and little prejudices have fallen away... I have this huge thirst for knowledge and new experiences... I Just thought I'd post this cuz I need to tell people. This feeling is too wonderful to keep to myself. Kiama

Kismet	12 Oct 2002
Sounds like an amazing and wonderful event to have, and the beauty of it is, it is enduring. I understand and am glad you chose to share this experience with us. Love and Light, Kismet

ladycj	12 Oct 2002
How wonderful to be granted such a gift. Cherish it, Breath it, Live it. But that we all could be like this. Blessed Be.

RedWood	12 Oct 2002
How amazing for you Kiama! WOW...Do you have a guide who is telling what the plan is for you? Is there a plan? Know what I mean.. you get this amazing gift and is there a specific purpose? besides giving love...healing etc...Know what i mean?

Isis	12 Oct 2002
Hi Kiama. I understand exactly what has happened to you because something similar happened to me. Perhaps not quite as intense as you, but certainly a great psychic experience, after which all the cares of the world, and all my aches and pains flew out of the window, in an instant. This left me feeling, like you, full of love and energy and, also like you, I 'saw' things and people on my inner eye. Since the early days, things have quietened down a lot, and I'm glad of that becasue I don't think I could have stood the pace for a long time. It is as though Spirit have to show you everything that is possible, and then it is up to you to accept whatever you feel you can handle. It can all be confusing in the beginning, but sounds to me like you have it all under control. Accept the love being shown, and given to you, and pass it on to whoever needs it. After all, that's what it is all about. Love and Light, Isis

Moongold	12 Oct 2002
Hello Kiama, Yes, this experience is a gift. Just *be* with it......and thank you for telling us about it. I had a similar experience almost 23 years ago after a period of serious illness during which I temporarily lost some sight. One night I had an incredible dream which changed most of my fears and that was followed by an experience similar to the one you describe. Incredible awareness and happiness. Going to sleep and dreaming music and laughter. Seeing the vitality and goodness in other people. Having a feeling of lightness and energy. This experience lasted about four weeks and then I got caught up with my career and the ways of the world again, and life went on. I have had much shorter periods of this awareness from time to time but never something so peaceful and right. It was almost what I imagine *bliss* to be but more substantial than that. My experience could well be interpreted in a biological sense, but at the time and for many years after I understood it to be a spiritual experience, a gift that helped me through a difficult physical and emotional time. Moongold

Kiama	14 Oct 2002
Quote: Originally posted by RedWood How amazing for you Kiama! WOW...Do you have a guide who is telling what the plan is for you? Is there a plan? Know what I mean.. you get this amazing gift and is there a specific purpose? besides giving love...healing etc...Know what i mean? I am not aware of any guide or being actually telling me 'this is your purpose', but I just 'know' where I am supposed to be going and what I am supposed to be doing. The real fun is trying to work out HOW I'm supposed to be doing it! Isis and Moongold: Thanks for sharing your experiences! It makes me feel better that there are people who understand. Kiama

Laurel	14 Oct 2002
I've also had that experience on occaison. The length of time its lasted has varied from seconds to weeks, before I've returned to my normal state of consciousness. I've never been able to -make- it happen... it happens at the strangest times, but water has been a trigger more than once... I call it all a temporary state of exaltation. I'm so glad you shared this with all of us.

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