where i was for the last two weeks and spiritual path renewed

Thread originally posted on the Aeclectic Tarot Forum on 24 Jun 2003, and now archived in the Forum Library.

HOLMES	24 Jun 2003
there was a great passing at the home reserve of eagle lake so i went to the wake before the funeral. there i renewed many friendships, made some new ones, and cried with my people on the day of the funeral. it was an eye opener for myself for i had become an hermit living life alone and studying. here a death in the community made the community come together as one. and i took my place again in the community as a member. also in those two weeks there was a graduation, there i seen kids i used to babysit graduate high school and i was full of emotion and happiness as those graduates ended their high school years. and finally there was a wedding two weeks later which many people went to and were happy(and some drunk fights broke out over the course of the night and morning ). this i didn't attend however for i was being counseled the day before on my eating disorder and that drained me out for two days. it was a three hour counseling session where we talked about paths of lives, helping others, dreams and life experiences. i also went into two sweat lodges after not being in a sweat lodge for two years prior (hey this hermit didnt' come out of his cave heehh) and there i had a massive energy clearing. in fact the night before i had a neck pain in my right side of the neck which was anger i had at the whole world. during the first sweat it went to the my left side. that was representative of being angry, and blaming myself for not following the path and that was clear in the second sweat lodge. and the path renewed was the 7 card readings i did for free(i didn't feel right charging in the wake of the funeral and such) and i did reflexology and hands on healing 15 times , there was some repeats. in one day i was so high on energy i did 6 people that day, i also started just to chant aom deep and high many times as i wake up in an effort to release my throat chakra. people were asking me where did i learn this, how did i get into this, and they had forgotten i started it when i lived in the community 11 years ago. i felt so alive over there, and did a card reading if i should stay over there, it said fear (how would i survive) confustion and strenght reversed. but ended up in asking, prayer and gods will. (soul truth tidings card were used by me). also the card good deeds kept popping up when i was shuffling. so i get the sense that i will be going back there again to work on people, do card readings, the good thing is , those i read for said i was so close, how did i know that?, and those i worked on said how did you know that just by my feet, and i feel so energized, and good. yet it is good to be home. i think my path will change to acquiring healing books as i sincerly believe that as i help others i help myself. (kind of like when i read for others i learn about myself as well). yet i will work on myself more through my traditional sweat lodge as well.

Umbrae	24 Jun 2003
WB - my friend...

buzzbee	24 Jun 2003
A death, a graduation, a wedding, & a personal breakthrough -- quite a positive synchronistic pattern emerging. Blessings!

wavebreaker	24 Jun 2003
You've been busy! ;) Welcome back!

Diana	24 Jun 2003
Holmes: At last you have broken through..... It's been a long journey up to the top of the mountain. I'm glad you made it. For the moment, it is not important where you are, but who you are. See the setting sun? Once it's set, turn and face east and watch. A new dawn will be rising soon and you will be part of it. It will no longer be just something that you watch as an observer. I will watch the sun rise too, and I will greet it and say "Hello Holmes. I'm glad to see you." (((((((((Holmes))))))))))

Melissa`	24 Jun 2003
Welcome back Holmes! Glad to see you :) .. had been wondering where you ran off to. Many Blessings, Amaya

zorya	24 Jun 2003
how beautiful holmes! i cannot tell you how touched i am by your story. it sounds like you have found true balance. so often i have been told i need grounding. i exist in the water and wind. grounding and living in the practical world tends to sound...well...... unpleasant to me. i feel like i don't belong there. even though i know that balance is necessary, deep down i would so much rather exist in the other 'realities'. it seems to me like you are finding a way to do both. congrats! and welcome back!

Marion	24 Jun 2003
HOLMES, your experiences sounded exhilerating and exhausting both. Your words sound very happy and alive and I am glad for you my friend. Marion

Alissa	24 Jun 2003
Holmes, it's wonderful to hear of your journey's continuation. I'm so glad you came back to tell us what's going on. Don't forget the community you've built here as well, but I'm so pleased to hear of your emergence. Quote: i exist in the water and wind. grounding and living in the practical world tends to sound...well...... unpleasant to me. i feel like i don't belong there. deep down i would so much rather exist in the other 'realities'. OMG do i understand this ... me too zorya, me too (except less water, more wind).

amyel	24 Jun 2003
Holmes, you've been on my mind, and I was wondering where you'd gone to. Glad to see you back, refreshed and renewed.

RedWood	24 Jun 2003
Welcome back Holmes..what a feeling of calm and relief i felt through your post. Balance..that is hard..I salute you. Unlike Alissa and Zorya.. I am to groudned..I need to go out there..someday..

Melvis	24 Jun 2003
(((Holmes))) Wow, Holmes! Your personal spiritual journey continues to inspire me. It sounds like you definitely have a gift for healing. But I guess we all know that fact here at Aeclectic...your words are always inspiring! I'm glad you're back...we missed you! :) Take care, Peace, Melvis :TSTRE

Mimers	24 Jun 2003
Hi Holmes, I missed seeing you around and I am glad to see you back. Your message speaks to us all. I am glad you are finding your way. Believe in yourself. There is so much in you waiting to come out. Much love, Mimi

Cerulean	25 Jun 2003
welcome back. What an inspirational story! Mari

Alex	25 Jun 2003
Holmes, Just wanted to say that I relate to some of what you describe. I'm away from home too, and when I go back, I find it hard to remember why I have left, and when I get here it takes me a while to get used to my life again. But I trust that when I come back I'll be able to give those people some more than being stuck there, striving with difficulty and being unable to help anyone cause I can't even help myself. Sometimes, it's a matter of putting oneself in an advantageous situation, such as to be in a condition to be really "helpful". Alex.

Moongold	26 Jun 2003
Holmes, I've missed you too. Thank you for telling us that part of your journey. God be with you and guide you always.

DarkElectric	26 Jun 2003
HOLMES! So glad you're back, and that you made a breakthrough. I too am learning more every day about what it really means to be alive, but haven't made that quantum leap yet, that you have. I'm happy for you, dear brother. Peace, blessings, and lots of love to ya :)

VGimlet	28 Jun 2003
Hi Holmes! {{{{HOLMES}}}} I was reading through the posts, wondering where you were, and what you've been up to lately :) It sounds like you've found some new paths to explore - or maybe some old ones to become familiar with again. Anyway, glad to see you and....cool. :D

Sulis	29 Jun 2003
Glad to see you`re back Holmes. You sound very uplifted by your experiences. I`m glad for you Love and light Crystalmynx xx

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