squeakmo9
RWS- 5 of Swords- my emotions as characters
Me as #1- Breathless and astounded at my good fortune, feeling rather mighty in the moment. Something feels too good to be true. Established something, more for myself then for the other two men. Felt I stood up for myself, and there was no other way to do it, or so I initially thought.
Me as #2- Depressed at the turn of events, didn't see any of these emotions (which are racing in) coming. Speechless, and stuck recounting events over and over again.
Me as #3- I feel sad, can't hold in the tears anymore. The release is refreshing, and the tension/fear, gone. Even in the loss I feel relief, and a strange sense of hope just below the surface.
Actual situation fitting to these emotions:
I can say that I have been all three of these men in a conflict/fight with a neighbor. This happened 2 weeks ago.
I had witnessed a neighbor doing something to my property, out of spite. The reason I say "out of spite" is because the moment I caught them in the act, there was more tension, but also embarrasment. Upon sensing their embarassment, it made me feel even more justified, and my anger intensified. Words were exchanged, and for lack of a better word, I "won". I made my point in front of all our neighbors, who were shoveling snow at the time. There were witnesses.
When I was in the moment, I felt rage and hate for what was being done, and for who was doing it. After it was over, I felt shocked at some of the things that came out of my mouth...what I said and how I said it. I thought myself a better person then to do and say what I had done. Felt embarrassed and ashamed of myself. Wanted answers as to why I reacted as I did. Then I began to shake, I started to cry(in private). I felt wronged and wrong, I was worn out in every way. The incident was quick, just a handful of minutes, but it left me thinking long after it was over.
Me as #1- Breathless and astounded at my good fortune, feeling rather mighty in the moment. Something feels too good to be true. Established something, more for myself then for the other two men. Felt I stood up for myself, and there was no other way to do it, or so I initially thought.
Me as #2- Depressed at the turn of events, didn't see any of these emotions (which are racing in) coming. Speechless, and stuck recounting events over and over again.
Me as #3- I feel sad, can't hold in the tears anymore. The release is refreshing, and the tension/fear, gone. Even in the loss I feel relief, and a strange sense of hope just below the surface.
Actual situation fitting to these emotions:
I can say that I have been all three of these men in a conflict/fight with a neighbor. This happened 2 weeks ago.
I had witnessed a neighbor doing something to my property, out of spite. The reason I say "out of spite" is because the moment I caught them in the act, there was more tension, but also embarrasment. Upon sensing their embarassment, it made me feel even more justified, and my anger intensified. Words were exchanged, and for lack of a better word, I "won". I made my point in front of all our neighbors, who were shoveling snow at the time. There were witnesses.
When I was in the moment, I felt rage and hate for what was being done, and for who was doing it. After it was over, I felt shocked at some of the things that came out of my mouth...what I said and how I said it. I thought myself a better person then to do and say what I had done. Felt embarrassed and ashamed of myself. Wanted answers as to why I reacted as I did. Then I began to shake, I started to cry(in private). I felt wronged and wrong, I was worn out in every way. The incident was quick, just a handful of minutes, but it left me thinking long after it was over.