uraszz
Dear (((urazz))) l feel your pain so much, l have been through this process of grief so many times with many of my pets. l know how devastated you feel, it takes time to come to terms with your strong emotions.
l do hope that by using and learning the Mary El you will find something to ease your pain. It's a Tarot l have often looked at, and as of now it still remains one l look at. l would be very interested to know how you get on with it.
You had that sudden need to have this particular deck, so maybe your little Midori is urging you to get it as gift from him.
Bless you
I'm very sorry you had to go through the same thing, even multiple times. I've decided that one period of grief is enough for me and do not plan on adopting a companion any time soon
If it is a gift from Midori I hope that he knows that I'll cherish it for the rest of my life
Thank you
Sincerely
-uraszz