Hello,
I'm sorry that I've been a bit haphazard in keeping up with the lessons. I've just started a new job (in the past month) and I've found it difficult adjusting and balacing things. I'm hoping to be more disciplined in the future (I promise ?), so please bear with me. I am slowly, but surely adding my experiences to the previous lessons, so have a look at them if you want.
So ... as for my feelings to the seasons of the year. I'll start with easiest first - Autumn. This ones easy as I actually don't really have much feeling towards Autumn. I'm generally quite happy in Autumn. I tend to find it a quiet period, where I can think more, be by myself more and not feel guilty or odd about spending time by myself, reading, reflecting etc. I particularly love the late end of autumn, coming into winter, over the December period. This seems to be a time when I feel happy with close friends, family members. I have a ritual, developed with a close friend where inbetween christman and new year we spend an evening reviewing our year, evaluating our achievements and basicaly congratulating ourself on a year well spent. This very contemplative, balanced frame of mind take a sharp downturn in January when I generally feel depressed and stagnant. Everything seems to be twice as much effort. I find snow, rain, cold mixed with darkness really difficult. I feel quite frustrated, waiting for spring, the time when I can start to put plans I made in Autumn into action. Funnily enough I used to love Winter when I was younger. I used to see it as a period of time when I could really spend time with myself and can remenber loving being warm and wrapped up when it was snowing outside. I think that I would still like Winter if I didn't work and have to leave the house in the cold. As spring approaches I usually count the days in my diary, motivating myself. I get very excited with the 'firsts' of spring, such as flowers, sunlight, smells and love feeling more energy as the days get longer. This is usually reflected in ny behaviour as I start to iniate projects, plans during Spring and feel myself developing and expanding as a person. In the summer I am much more sociable and energetic, especially towards others. I find that most of my friendships are initiated in the Summer. Although I sometimes feel the heat to oppressive and at these times I am incredibly lazy and spend hours lazing about, doing not much. This interferes with work and life as much as Winter, although I am extremely happy at the time.
What weather do I like ? Well I don't like snow or rain if I am ouside although I quite like watching it from the inside. I don't mind wind, I quite like the force of it. I especially love thunder and lightning. When there's a lightning storm I spend most of my time running about trying to get the best viewing point. My favourite weather is probably a nice warm spring day, with a few light showers or a nice warm autumn day, possibly with a thunder storm at the end for excitement.
I found it difficult working out my natural element. Friends usually, if pushed, describe me as air/swords, driven more by thoughts. However I am also extremely emotional at the same time. In terms of fire, water, air, earth (as elements) not what they represent, I favour water by far. If I am at home I am usually in the bath where I take books, food and drinks with me. And I love the sea.
I am going to do the cleansing caers meditation on Thursday, so I'll post the results then - Just before the actual Spear quest starts ?
With Best Wishes,
Kai