Freaky reactions
Knee jerks, screaming, laughter, hysterics & fear. Dear God in heaven.
Will someone please yank this planets illusion of retro back into place? ARGH!
I'm watching two members in my home dance to insanity. No Merc Rx in their natal. They scream for 30 mins, I walk away. Next thing they are talking excitedly over something funny. MOMMA MIA!
I'm watching a huge family group and friends dump a huge amount of guilt on an ailing member. What in gods green world has come over the pride of what was considered somewhat normal people?
Ok, so I can accept things being out of control, people coming back into my life after being gone for a while and even secrets being laid wide open. But this fighting has me wide wake at night and my ulcer hates me.
I have a deep peace within me. If I get upset I feel the yuckiness rise, and then its gone. I credit meditation, not myself. Cause in being with all of the above people, I have wanted to respond with the most ugliest, hateful, nasty, evil things that has been created in the english lato express black ice from ones soul. Again, the funny part is, I don't feel this nasty feeling. I know its there, I just don't accept the emotion. Which in turns keeps my mouth shut and the energy zapped from the reaction to others selfishness.
Strange, stranger, and strangest.
) Barb