I don't know Bec...you seem pretty good at expressing yourself to me. What I see you saying on the boards is very expressive.
I have mars in aries in the 1st house, and my asc (PIS) is also in the 1st house. I get a lot of energy from this placement, and can really get into sports like soccer, basketball, and lately mountain boarding.Out of these activities, the one that makes the aries energy sing, is the mountain boarding. Coasting down a bumpy curvy hill on a dirt road in the forest, with trees blurrily whizzing by, and only the sound of air rushing past my ears...and the forest sounds...and that pit of fear in my stomach that a car may be coming around the curve, or I may slam into a tree or over the edge of a huge steep slope... And there's just something so sensual about having those 4 tires on the earth, all interacting with the rocks, holes, and tree roots differently, that feeling you get when you are so in tune with the movement of the board, its organic rhythm. Sometimes I actually make audible happy sounds. (only the forest creatures can hear me squeal
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Maybe that Pis asc, cusping my 12th house is what gives my pursuit of sports, and adrenaline a slight addictive quality (sometimes not so slight)...as a kid I'd practice tennis alone, hitting the ball against a backboard until my hands were blistered, to complete exhaustion. Now, I find myself repeatedly climbing the same hill over and over, to sail back down....and I am 35! Well, to me, it is a much more enjoyable way to get exercise than plain old gym stuff.
So, I am really appreciative of this/these placements, they are fun to have, if a little dangerous.