Grigori
Aiwass said:21. We have nothing with the outcast and the unfit: let them die in their misery. For they feel not. Compassion is the vice of kings: stamp down the wretched & the weak: this is the law of the strong: this is our law and the joy of the world.
Freddie said:My honest question this: If I feel my true will is to teach and work (and feel true love in my heart for) with people who have a disabilty does this make me a weak person?
I'm glad that you introduced the topic of disability into this line Freddie. I saw someone once in the past have a fit at the idea that this line was a Thelemic way of saying to cast out those with a diagnosed disability. Though certainly Thelema seems to me to have a strong hierarchical structure, based on strengths (I'm constantly reminded of wolf packs, where the biggest and strongest are the leaders), I don't see this as a criticism of those with weaknesses (after all, that's all of us) but rather a call to follow each of our own Will/Strengths to find our own place in the big scheme of things. Or even follow our weaknesses, but do something about it! To me the wretched are those who moan and whinge about their situation, but don't do anything to change it. I see that sometimes with people after tarot readings, they ask the same questions over and over, always expecting a different answer or some magical change in their circumstances without actually doing anything about it themselves. Serial querants like that are a pet peeve of mine. Actually scratch that, the querant isn't the problem, the problem is the reader who molly-coddles them with faint praise about what a good person they are, and how they don't deserve to have such misery, but doesn't advise them to do anything about it. Indulging weaknesses is what this line tells us to not do, I think in ourselves and also for others.
The wolves who lead the pack, do so because its in the best interest of the rest of the pack. It reminds me in fact of the Knights from the Thoth deck, or warrior kings. The get to be the leaders, but also the first to risk death in battle as they are also the strongest fighters so its not really a great prize. A King on horseback who serves his people, rather than a King in a throne off in some fancy castle who taxes them to fill his coffers.
Line 1.10 was really striking for me in that regard, to me it seems to say leadership is given to the servants of Nuit, i.e. those who serve the many (like a warrior king). So I don't see any weakness in a role of service if that is your Will, just as long as its not a position that is used to take strength away from others by making them dependent on you (i.e. making them wretched and weak to give you the feeling of power). In that way its not really about what you do, but it seems to me to be more about the way you do something.
I'm experiencing a similar situation in my work life at the moment. I work as a healer and am finding more and more that I want to see clients for a short time, and get them to a place where they don't need/want to come anymore so I can say goodbye. This makes business more difficult for me in that I need a constant stream of new clients for the financial side of things, but the business model of some others I know who have a smaller client base but encourage dependency to keep the cash register pinging is not something that I could do comfortably. This has been a growing feeling for me lately, which I'd not linked to my studies of Thelema until just now, but is very clear to me that this study is the source of that increased discomfort for me. Thanks!