Always Wondering said:
I am beginning to understand that I am fairly attached to "why". I have spent the last few days listening to myself and I ask why a lot.
I've spent the last few weeks, on and off, listening to a 3 year old; why, where, who, which, how. At one time it all got jumbled out into a stammer of repeated 'w' s
Always Wondering said:
If we don't ask why how can we know ourselves?
On first glance this verse feels to me like the self-pity type of why, which is often part of the grief process and perhaps related to the great sorrow. I can see getting hung up on that. I have.
'Oh why, oh why did this have to happen to me?" - Kurt Vonneghurt's answer: "because you were there, smuck!" -of course, that isnt always the answer - but its handy to remember that we are not always the centre of THE universe, just a very small insignificant speck (not forgetting that that speck is totally unique and is the centre of 'its' universe).
Always Wondering said:
It would be easy to accept this verse as a simple warning against self-pity. But I am wondering about the other whys. Don't they speak to an inquisitiveness that would lead one to magick? I guess I don't understand why asking why would make the will stop. (See there, why?
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I agree, I dont think it is talking about this - I dont think we stop asking why - in that context.
WHY is very important. I believe what Crowley is refering to is this;
I wake up at 4:30 am and know I have a great story in my head, I wake up fully awake and jot down the summary, then I go back to bed and fall asleep instantly. I wake up refreshed at 6 am, get out the laptop, consult the notes, realise I dont need them (as its all in my head) and it just flows out. Everyone seems to think it is a great story. I can agree, as it isnt really like I wrote it ... it got written somewhere else, I was the secretary.
At no time during this process did 'why' exist in my universe.
Perhaps its part of my True Will to be a writer.
If it is my True Will to be a helicopter pilot or a nurse, I am not going to fly off in the copter or go to work at 6 am washing old people asking - why. I'll just do it. .... Because ... ; see, even that doesnt make sense.
There is no why or because when one is eneacting ones will.
If you keep asking 'why' (particularly - why am I doing this) chances are that you are not doing a job or activity in alignment with your True Will.
Same with love and sex, when you really love someone (in eros and passion) do you ever think why? I dont think so, it seems the most natural thing in the world (or most supernatural) to express it.
So I take the verse as specifically relating to the fulfillment of and enactment of the True Will. Not just asking why on any other ocassion that may LEAD one to understand the True Will.
Which also leads to the big question; Why am I here?
If your asking that, you are still on stage one of the big journey.