Flames
Thanks for replying...
It's almost impossible to be alone , completely alone....There are so many forms of life and spirits taking up every little space available....plus clouds and stars to fill the sky...
Okay...I see. Sometimes, I fail to see. I forget to remember to look...I forget to "re member" myself...
I know nothingness intimately...It is not vacant, empty...
There's always an observer watching on...documenting you in that space...
That observer is your Ego...Your intellectual self...it feels nothing, it just witnesses ... and remembers all...
This is the place where "walking in the dark" is mentioned...a place for the lost, until they can break out of that heart set...
This observer is the keeper of the gates...Very few can get past this essence...It matters not what educational standard one possesses...
Look at ISIS the ancient Egyptian underworld gatekeeper ...She holds a serpent in one hand and a feather in the other.
Behind her is Cerberus the 3 headed dog ...One head for each reality...
When Osiris brings a newly passed over soul to Isis...their heart is weighed to the weight of a feather...The serpent looks into all of those dark dark places...
Nothing can hide ...
I love this story. It's a powerful one. Referred to it when I read for someone in the Reading Circle...Yes, these dark places must be exposed...
If something weighty tips the hearts scales Cerberus attacks...no matter where they try to hide...he will find them and torment them until that weighty darkness is resolved...
I guess I'm being tormented. I feel like something is "cooking" inside of me...a fire is burning...burning away that which isn't necessary any longer...that which is "thick" and "dense"...I guess that's what's implied by a "purification" process?
It is best to deal with these things while one has a body to steer ...without it one is like a rudderless ship in rough waters...
Right. My understanding is that THIS IS one of the main purposes of having a body...to deal with these matters...
There is something in that Nothingness of yours...something that is not love based...
True. It is fear based...maybe due to a lack of faith...or feeling a resistance of having to go back in order to move forward...feeling like it's an uphill battle...It's tough, but no one ever said it would be easy...
Try Allowing it to be exactly as it is. Own it and experience it ,without judgements. When this happens the hidden FEEL will pop up which will expose your answer...It takes time...
It takes trust and it takes tolerance...While you can steer.
I'm trying to hear these words without the taint of the past, trying to hear them with new ears, see them with new eyes. I think I've become a little guarded. Trust is an issue for me, right now. Wasn't always that way...I want to KNOW something for myself and not to take it on as "truth" simply because someone else is telling me. I want to see and understand for myself, although everything you've written here resonates with me.
Look at it this way...at least it has popped up now to be dealt with and not taken to the other side...
I agree. I want to overcome...while I'm HERE.
Good luck, Flames...
Thank you, Pete, for your time and insight. All the best to you!