JDusk
Hi everyone,
This is from an 8 card spread with Deviant Moon addressing my relationship with my dad, especially our communication issues. I am in my early 20s and living with my parents so I expect it to be a bit awkward at times, but things have been really uncomfortable lately - it feels like our communication is completely blocked and I feel like I can't even have a straightforward conversation with him (which felt reinforced when I drew the Moon for "our current relationship" - there's a complete lack of transparency, even dishonesty). For "what's currently blocking our communication" I drew 8 of pentacles, which I mostly connected to him being really overworked, but I also don't think he's particularly happy with my choice of work, and both create tension. (This is just for context.)
In response to that, I asked "how can I unblock/improve our communication," and I drew 10 of cups rx. My instinct to it was basically, "you can't" - that coming back together as a happy family is not currently possible. To clarify, I drew 3 of cups rx. This scene seems similar to 10 of cups and I feel like it's just reiterating that there is a lack of joy, camaraderie, and emotional connection between us that I can't currently get past. But I don't feel like all hope is lost, yet, and I'm not asking how to communicate perfectly with him, just do something to improve things.
My second thought was maybe that it's telling me I shouldn't have unrealistic expectations about how much I can improve our relationship (no idealized family dynamic), and should just focus on basics. Any thoughts?
This is from an 8 card spread with Deviant Moon addressing my relationship with my dad, especially our communication issues. I am in my early 20s and living with my parents so I expect it to be a bit awkward at times, but things have been really uncomfortable lately - it feels like our communication is completely blocked and I feel like I can't even have a straightforward conversation with him (which felt reinforced when I drew the Moon for "our current relationship" - there's a complete lack of transparency, even dishonesty). For "what's currently blocking our communication" I drew 8 of pentacles, which I mostly connected to him being really overworked, but I also don't think he's particularly happy with my choice of work, and both create tension. (This is just for context.)
In response to that, I asked "how can I unblock/improve our communication," and I drew 10 of cups rx. My instinct to it was basically, "you can't" - that coming back together as a happy family is not currently possible. To clarify, I drew 3 of cups rx. This scene seems similar to 10 of cups and I feel like it's just reiterating that there is a lack of joy, camaraderie, and emotional connection between us that I can't currently get past. But I don't feel like all hope is lost, yet, and I'm not asking how to communicate perfectly with him, just do something to improve things.
My second thought was maybe that it's telling me I shouldn't have unrealistic expectations about how much I can improve our relationship (no idealized family dynamic), and should just focus on basics. Any thoughts?