Lol you're pretty good. I do identify with the Knight of Cups.
For you:
9 of Swords Rx
In the worst crises, when everyone would be quaking in distress and panic, you can keep a level head. You have the ability to dig deep and focus on the problem at hand, planning a course of action that can lead you out of the mess. You can avert the most dangerous problems, and are therefore a survivor.