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Love
Lady 28
To me this section indicates that it's a continuation of what is presently going on with your life. The reason I say this because there are so many cards proceeding you and Lady 28. This indicates history and recent past history that is still going to play a role now.
I think this is a lady you have hopes/wishes for...a crush. There are wishes and hopes pertaining to a choice/path/separation. This could be a new path/separation that brings new beginnings. A new beginning in love. This has caused a heart to heart conversation between you two. A conversation that is hard/emotionally tough/disappointing. This could be emotionally tough or disappointing on a friendship/possible companion. A friendship or companion that brings an opportunity/second chance. A second chance/opportunity that could allow improvements to happen. An improvement that brings peace and understanding. This is abundance of peace/calmness that might lead to rejection. A rejection to something comforting. Comfort and security on an emotional level. There are some emotions that come through text/other written forms. Written communication that was major. This is something major that may have been perceived as trickery from this Lady 28's view point or even yours. Trickery/manipulation through secrets. These secrets led to isolation in this interaction. Isolation that brings movement. Movement to happiness. Happiness through healing. Healing brought about from high emotional discussion. A high emotional/raw discussion is the solution. The solution to stability or a lifestyle. Lifestyle brought about from social circle/socializing. This socializing/meeting brings revelation. A revelation that is blocked/delayed. A possible lover dealing with blocks/obstacles/delays.
You
What you will be dealing with around you is this possible lover/crush. New beginning in love. Might be having to deal with trickery through knowledge/secrets. High emotional discussion is the solution.. it will give a lot of answers. Abundance of peace/calmness/understanding. A solution/answer to a lifestyle or even stability.
On your path you will be wanting a relationship in your life right now. You were in a state of confusion/doubts/uncertainty, but those doubts/confusion is coming to an ends. This desire to be with your crush in a relationship is ending.[/COLOR]
**** Yes, I would like to be in a relationship with her, and the entire situation has been incredibly confusing to me as I never expected to be attracted to her at all, and certainly not develop such strong feelings. I'm struggling to let it all go and just move on with my life as this woman moved me in strange ways, and she was the first person I was drawn to after being single for four and a half almost five years. At this point I've now been single for six years, and although I want love in my life I'd rather stay single than settle for a relationship which is less than a deep soul connection.
There is a lot of past between you two I feel. We have a lot of cards behind you and Lady 28. So indicates to me there is history here and what was going on in the past will continue. If you look at the chart.
We see in the future that there is going to be a conversation that is going to be difficult/disappointing. There is going to be emotions through written communication. The answer/solution to stability is going to be revealed. The fox siting in the house of book makes me want to warn you that there might be trickery/manipulation through knowledge or even secrets.
There is going to be burdens in this friendship/companionship. But I think the Lady 28 is going to give a second chance or take the opportunity for improvement and this is going to lead to the disappointment.
A relationship is coming to an end, but it will lead to movement and new arrival of happiness.
If we look at the row of (coffin)Ring...we see problems/lies/deception lead to a relationship (of any form) coming to an end, but this will allow movement and new arrival of happiness.
If we look at row of (stork)clover...we see Lady 28 a crush is most likely going to give a opportunity/second chance for improvements, but this will lead to disappointment/hardships in a friendship/companionship.
If we look at (book)fox...we have you in Ring wanting a relationship..desiring a relationship. This is going to lead to receiving manipulation/trickery base on knowledge and secrets. Emotions through letter.
If we look at row of (anchor)key...we have peace/calmness/understanding in abundance leads to answers/solution to stability that will be in the form of a conversation that is disappointing/tough.
I get this feeling that Lady 28 doesn't outright know you have a crush on her.. You probably didn't tell her. But, I think she does and I don't get a good feeling from this layout. I will really keep an eye out for trickery/manipulation.
I don't see New love completely entering your life.. a lot of having to deal with past stuff. But, the Rider in House of Bouquet is promising. I think you will have movement in your life by the end of the month that leads to happiness. I just don't see it with Lady 28....Snake is a very prominent card and Fox in the House of Book I don't like either.
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If this is the woman I currently do have a crush on, then it will be interesting to see how this all plays out. She and I had a falling out in what I thought was a friendship that we were established, and this took place at the beginning of July last year. I was the one who elected to end our friendship and walk away after she misread some actions of mine as being negative when my intentions were quite the opposite, I simply went about things in an idiotic manner. After realising my mistake I attempted to reconcile with her, but she never responded to any emails or text messages. She then presumably proceeded to start a relationship with the woman she told me she was in love with prior to us going our seperate ways. Thiswoman was someone I actively encouraged her date although she expressed interest in being alone to sort herself out. I'm fairly certain if lady 28 is my current crush, then she was aware that I had a crush on her because she apologised for any potential hurt I may be feeling regarding her feelings for this other woman. Whether she still realises I have a crush now, is another thing though. You're right that I never openly said the actual words, but I feel she was aware nonetheless.
Now skip forward to March of this year, and you my crush coming back into my physical space - she actually lives interstate so I hadn't seen her since March of 2015. I got incredibly drunk one night and sent her a text saying, "Don't worry in time I will forget you even exist" and instantly regret it. She was working at a festival I attended, and we were in the same physical space but never had any actual contact. I saw her from a distance (some of it not far at all), but never attempted to speak to her at all. However, after the festival ended I sent her an email apologising for the text, and for the first time since July 2015 she actually responds. Turns out she never received my text - perhaps she blocked my number on her phone, and she accepts my apology and points out that she had thought she may run into me. She never specified whether she saw me or not, just that she had met my doppelganger. I wrote back intrigued asking about this doppelganger of mine, but she never responded. Is this communication the trickery of which you speak, perhaps? Or do you feel that is yet to happen?
On a side note, it could also be said that she felt quite put out by the communication which caused the breakdown in our connection to begin with. I sent her a care package when her grandmother passed away to her home address, and it freaked her out because I got her address from the internet. It was on a CV she had uploaded online, and which she knew I had seen because we had discussed it in person one night and she pointed out the address was for her home, so I didn't think I was doing anything wrong but it brought up a whole lot of issues from her past. My actions were stupid, but I was just trying to be kind and I didn't fathom that she would take it all so badly. The only reason I didn't ask if it was okay to the send the package there was because I knew she was having a hard time and I didn't want to bother her while she had so much stuff going on.
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So it looks like from your spread if this is my crush (and not my ex who this long history could also pertain to) she may attempt to email me this month, and potentially want to rekindle what was our burgeoning friendship and there may be possible deception involved. What we had has certainly already come to an end a very long time ago, it's just me alone with my feelings at this point. So perhaps you're right in saying I will finally accept that this is dead and move on. I am doubting at this point I will ever hear from her again or at least not by email/text, but there is a very, very slight chance I may bump into her at the festival I am attending next week.
I'll update this again at the end of the month, but I wanted to thank you for taking the time to do this wonderful spread. I can see that it is incredibly involved and thus incredibly time consuming, and I want you to know that I am extremely grateful for your generosity.
If there is anything you don't feel I have provided adequate feedback on, then please let me know. I apologise for going through the entire history of my connection with my crush, but I wanted explain everything thoroughly so that the current situation has context.
