Don't give up on the anti-depressants,it took me two years to find the right ones and I have never felt this normal in all my life,but you still will feel depressed, some times, even while you are on depressants. That unfortunately is part of your life but belive me it will not be so bad as when you were not taking anything, hang in there kiddo! Here are some Crystals that might help you to; Apache Tear Drops smoky Obsidian found only near an Apache massacre sight, it said that they represent the many tears shed that day so one who bears them is thus protected from grief for all the tears have been shed already. Amethyst for it's calming affect on nervous and mental stress. Hematite stabilises mood swings, good for aches and pains too. Rose Quartz self fulfilment and inner peace. I hope this helps you on your journey to find you. Blessings