Aura Wolf
Hi all. I have around 20 tarot decks, and that's after trading away the few I couldn't click with. A few of the ones I have left I am planning to keep mostly as art decks, but most of them I would actually like to read with! But between work, university classes, and everything else I have very little time in which to really connect individually with my decks. There are a few I know better than others (the ones I've had longer) and I'll always pull out and keep certain decks around at different times because I like to feel their presence and look through them, but I have little time and energy for doing too many online readings for others (every time I offer, something else comes up and I feel pressured and at a loss for time). I'm getting better at reading for myself, but I just don't seem to have enough questions to ask! I end up reading about my relationship over and over, which I know is pointless to repeat so often. I always try to keep tarot journals (I've tried paper journals and computer journals with pictures), it's great and I would love to keep one for every deck and focus on each card, but frankly it would drive me nuts! I can never even seem to get through one deck, let alone twenty, because writing what I think about every single card seems like such a chore sometimes. I want to EXPERIENCE the cards through readings and study, not try to force understanding--to me, that's just not the same. I'd participate in more study groups, but my lack of time can make it difficult, and I always fear that it will feel too much like journaling in the end, going through each card one by one. Daily card draws never really did it for me and all these one or two-card readings I'm doing for myself are wonderfully revealing and accurate, but I feel like I'm only getting to know a fraction of each of my decks at a time.
Am I just too impatient? Do I need to compromise? Do I need to find more reasons to read for myself? How do you guys manage to find the time to connect with each of your decks on a personal level (other than keep from buying more )? Do you have any suggestions for exercises that help you to really connect with your cards, rather than just looking through them or journaling? I'm kind of at a loss here. I see my cards sitting beside me, and I have this incredible longing to use them, so I take them out and look through them, can't think of any relevant questions to ask, and put them away because I have to go do something else. I love my cards, but I'm in a rut. Please help! Any suggestions would be appreciated.
Am I just too impatient? Do I need to compromise? Do I need to find more reasons to read for myself? How do you guys manage to find the time to connect with each of your decks on a personal level (other than keep from buying more )? Do you have any suggestions for exercises that help you to really connect with your cards, rather than just looking through them or journaling? I'm kind of at a loss here. I see my cards sitting beside me, and I have this incredible longing to use them, so I take them out and look through them, can't think of any relevant questions to ask, and put them away because I have to go do something else. I love my cards, but I'm in a rut. Please help! Any suggestions would be appreciated.