Slit throats and brain disease?

[Emelgee]

Hi

OK - before I go into the dreams I will tell you a bit about what I was feeling/thinking as I went to bed. I literally fell asleep still thinking about this situation and wanting a dream to elaborate on my situation.

As Moderndayruth knows full well, (thanks for the reading MDR!!), I am having considerations about my involvement with a man. We like each other but we just can't seem to get off on any foot - probably a mixture of his "issues" and my "issues". Last night, I think I started my first step of really fully accepting responsibility for my own emotions and reactions to situations. I realised I like him but I can't control the situation and so I need to monitor my reactions and try to learn how to not let myself run away with my negative emotions; and that there is no "perfect" way for a relationship to develop. Sometimes ambiguity has to be lived with.

I had these following dreams:

In one it was like I was at a farm and there was a dog or wolf in a pen who was happily running around and eating and there was some sort of discussion about the fact that he had to have his throat cut – I can’t remember if it was thought that the meat was for eating? Anyway, the dog goes up to his food trough and is happily eating and the man who has to cut his throat comes up behind him with a big sharp knife and cuts his throat! When I see the man walking up behind the animal, I cover my eyes with my hands but I can see through my fingers and see the event occuring and I am surprised at how easily the knife did its work. (I don't know if there was no blood or I woke up or made myself "jump" out of that dream).

Then, the second dream is of a man I work with - my direct superior. In the dream, I am *me* but I am in his body. There is something wrong with my brain and I sometimes lose control over parts of my body, there is weakness in my body due to this problem/injury with my brain. There was a feeling of panic, of lost control. I don't remember if this was a part of the dream or not, but now as I type this out, I have this really strong feeling of learning new ways to do things; setting new neural pathways?

(I don't know why my boss came up on my dream but I do recall thinking yesterday that he never stops! for instance, he was in a meeting, yet accessing his emails from his blackberry - sort of continuously multitasking but never having the luxury of having his attention on one thing at a time).

I woke up this morning very tired and the dreams were already fading.

Any ideas?

Cheers
E

[YDM42]

I believe your dream is pointing to the fact that you have some trust issues.
I love dogs in dreams, dogs are God spelled backwards.

It sound like your fear steams from lack of faith or trust maybe, not control issues.
It reads like you have you have been hurt before and didn't understand why. The last time you trusted someone to provide your needs, they cut your throat- and maybe you were a loyal compainion and worker and they treated you like a dog or worked you like a dog, or treated you less than humane.

Maybe you were so sure about it, and sure everything would be alright and some thing snuck up from behind and blind sighted you. This is about faith- not control.

Your boss, symbolizes a Higher figure, your boss, who never seems to have time to give you his full attention. This again makes me feel as though your issues in the dream come from inability to trust and believe anyone cares, not YOU wanting to control the relationship. You do not have faith in the person you need to depend and rely on, and maybe you are worried about that person being self centered or scatterd never having time for you.
You do not have faith that your needs will be met, or when they are met, as with the dog eating food, then there is always a catch 22-
Could be deep down you are speaking up for yourself because you may feel "unworthy" or that no one listening- no one cares or no one is paying close enough attention to you, to truly understand what those needs are. Guess what that someone that needs to do that is YOU. (that is why you are in your boss's body- trying to think like yourself, but he cant think like you, he is not you and he cant read your MIND)

Perhaps you can begin by first focusing on what it is that you really want from the relationship. All relationships, home, work, personal.
Don't mulit-task like your boss does with you when you do it, sit down with yourself and decide what it is that you truly want and give it your full attention- maybe right it down, have faith in yourself that you know what is best for you- Then start communicating it to others that you interact with, as well as your higher power, also communicate to others, what is best for you and what you need at any given moment and then and move forward- with faith in yourself and the Universe/God/ Higher Power/ Source.

Sorry if its way off....hope it helps, hugs and love.

[Emelgee]

YDM42 - Thanks! I was struggling with the dream and I feel your comments are pretty accurate.

New doors have opened up for me and I thank you for your help with that!

Peace
E

[Callistabell]

Let me first say that I understand how dreams can effect you all to well. I have what has been referred to as nightmare disorder and have been struggling with/ dealing with the images I experience in dreams all my life.
Also, it is my experience and my opinion that our dreams reafirm our emotions on the deepest levels. They speak to us in symbols, but not everything in the dream is, itslef, a message. The mind chooses a message and a strong symbol to relay that message, or afirmation of emotion and then colors in around the picutre with mismatching jigsaw puzzel pieces from our memory. Usually, the most recent experiences that are fresh in our memory. Sometimes recents thoughts and experinces pop up in dreams to color around the message, to make the picture complete.

so here's my take on your dreams:

The message of the first dream seems to be fear and unwanted experience. Your mind felt that the man, the dog, and the event of the throat cutting were the best ways to relay the message or affirm your feelings. Perhaps there is a dominant or aggressive man in your life who you are at odds with, or maybe you met an aggresive or abrassive stranger that you didn't like. Animals who are happy usually symbolize natural life or a natural state of being. The throat being slit is a strong, dramatic, and unmistakeable event that would be UNWANTED and upsetting.

The second dream appears to say that you are having trouble not being your true self. You are being someone you are not in some aspect of your life and it is hard for you, emotionally, to keep this up. Your boss is just a puzzel piece, you said he was fresh in your mind, with the black berry thing. He's someone you would probably find it very difficult to be like. The brain disease is not forboding, its just a way that your intellectual mind represents something wrong in your mind- being someone you are not, in some way- and having to learn how to do that, difficulty forming those new behaviors or general ways of being. It is hard to be in control of something you are very new at.

I think, overall, your subconscious was saying this:
Don't let others impose unwanted experiences on you
and
Be true to yourself. Be who you really are and work how you really work.

This should bring you peace when you sleep.