Quote:widuem (05 Feb, 2002 03:28):
My mother has been ill for a very long time, and I had done a number of readings in recent weeks on how long she would live.
I have *very much* been in your shoes, so believe me when I say I know exactly how you feel. It's terrible, not knowing. And equally terrible to know, from any source, if knowing is possible.
Here's my question, why did you do this reading now, in particular? What is your mother ill with, if I may ask, and has it gotten worse? What spread and deck did you use, and why do you believe the 8/swords means 8 months not, forgive me, 8 weeks, 8 days or 8 years for that matter? And if you feel this was the answer the first time, why re-do it 6 times?
The thing is, the Tarot is not the place to search for hope or miracles. It's what you use to find out inner truths. Tarot tells you things you don't want to hear, or that you've over looked, or not considered. It's not always bad news, but if you ask it if someone will die, well, yes, because we all have a finite amount of time, and the tarot isn't going to lie to you about that.
My point is, perhaps that 8 of swords isn't a message to you about your mother, so much as a message to you about how you are living your life right now, bound in, trapped by fears, laying out those cards again, and again, and again, preoccupied with her illness and death, and not your life, or her life for that matter.
It's certainly something to think about. Having been in your shoes, I urge you to consider what you can do not only for your mother's comfort and happiness at this time, but for yourself as well. Your life matters, too.