Lalande
Hello!
For a (hopefully brief) history, I'm 6 months into a 2-year Canadian holiday visa that allows me to have full-time work. My current living arrangement is in a rural-ish area about two hours north of Toronto by public transport where I'm staying with a friend's mother and a few housemates she has to keep her house less lonely. I'm becoming rather depressed as I feel I'm making no progress and believe it's time to move on, but I'm torn between looking for work in Toronto and sticking out the grueling commute until I find a place of my own or starting from scratch in Ottawa. I have intentions of applying for permanent residency next year, so I put down some cards to gain some insight as to the positive and negative of making each move and what the outcome would be regarding my application if I were to be in either place. I'm still relatively new to tarot, so this was done with a Marseilles deck (it was my first deck and a gift) but with RW meanings ascribed to them. Feel free to tell me off if that's no good
Toronto (choice one):
Positive: Ace of pentacles
Negative: 10 of cups
Outcome: 4 of wands (clarifier: 7 of pentacles)
Ottawa (choice two):
Positive: 4 of cups
Negative: The Devil
Outcome: 6 of wands (clarifier: Judgment)
My interpretations:
Choice one: I think the ace of pentacles is saying that the possibility for jobs is strong, but only if I accept positions low on the ladder and prove myself, giving me the chance to rise through ranks. Alternatively, it's a lot of accepting short-term contract gigs. Nevertheless, my interpretation is that I will be okay for work if I change my expectations. The 10 of cups makes me think of my current living situation, the negative being that it will take longer than I expect for me to find a place of my own. I know any social life I try to build will be hindered by my location and I won't be able to stay downtown after work or casually get on a bus to hang out with people on weekends or have them come to my place. I initially thought that the 4 of wands indicated a celebration around my application for permanent residency being successful, but I'm also doubting myself in that it could look like I'm behind the stage looking at people waving goodbye or family at homing celebrating my return, as in the application will not be successful. For that reason, I drew the 7 of pentacles, but that makes me think I abandon the application, maybe? Looking at all those pentacles, everything I've done, and still having one left over. Perhaps my quality of life won't be great because I'll still be isolated, working menial jobs, and I end up doubting myself and not submitting the paperwork after all, that perhaps I think it might be better for me to go back to my home country and start fresh in a new city there.
Choice two: The 4 of cups makes me think that I will have an opportunity or opportunities handed to me that I wouldn't here. Maybe given Ottawa's location, it's being able to improve the French I've started to learn that will give me an edge when I do apply for residency. Maybe the move will be an exercise in being able to live more in the moment. With the Devil as a negative, I wonder if I won't find myself being lonely and having a crutch like drinking more than I usually do (which is rarely), taking up smoking again, or falling into a wrong crowd or jumping in and out of relationships. The only reason I feel this might happen to me is because I've always been somewhat of a doormat and found myself at the whim of others, so this newfound freedom of being in a new city on my lonesome for the first time would make me take advantage of that like a teenager who sneaks out of home to go partying. Similarly with the 4 of wands, the 6 of wands to me can be interpreted either as being victorious that I've succeeded in attaining residency, or it could also be family welcoming me back and there I am, strutting through my home city's airport on my own, the wreath being whatever experiences I can cherish from my time here. Judgment clarifying this, though, makes me think I will at least submit the application, the people on the card coming forward to be judged by the authorities. Whether it's successful or not, I'm not sure, but at least I would have tried.
I'm sorry if this is too long-winded, but I sure do appreciate anybody weighing in
For a (hopefully brief) history, I'm 6 months into a 2-year Canadian holiday visa that allows me to have full-time work. My current living arrangement is in a rural-ish area about two hours north of Toronto by public transport where I'm staying with a friend's mother and a few housemates she has to keep her house less lonely. I'm becoming rather depressed as I feel I'm making no progress and believe it's time to move on, but I'm torn between looking for work in Toronto and sticking out the grueling commute until I find a place of my own or starting from scratch in Ottawa. I have intentions of applying for permanent residency next year, so I put down some cards to gain some insight as to the positive and negative of making each move and what the outcome would be regarding my application if I were to be in either place. I'm still relatively new to tarot, so this was done with a Marseilles deck (it was my first deck and a gift) but with RW meanings ascribed to them. Feel free to tell me off if that's no good
Toronto (choice one):
Positive: Ace of pentacles
Negative: 10 of cups
Outcome: 4 of wands (clarifier: 7 of pentacles)
Ottawa (choice two):
Positive: 4 of cups
Negative: The Devil
Outcome: 6 of wands (clarifier: Judgment)
My interpretations:
Choice one: I think the ace of pentacles is saying that the possibility for jobs is strong, but only if I accept positions low on the ladder and prove myself, giving me the chance to rise through ranks. Alternatively, it's a lot of accepting short-term contract gigs. Nevertheless, my interpretation is that I will be okay for work if I change my expectations. The 10 of cups makes me think of my current living situation, the negative being that it will take longer than I expect for me to find a place of my own. I know any social life I try to build will be hindered by my location and I won't be able to stay downtown after work or casually get on a bus to hang out with people on weekends or have them come to my place. I initially thought that the 4 of wands indicated a celebration around my application for permanent residency being successful, but I'm also doubting myself in that it could look like I'm behind the stage looking at people waving goodbye or family at homing celebrating my return, as in the application will not be successful. For that reason, I drew the 7 of pentacles, but that makes me think I abandon the application, maybe? Looking at all those pentacles, everything I've done, and still having one left over. Perhaps my quality of life won't be great because I'll still be isolated, working menial jobs, and I end up doubting myself and not submitting the paperwork after all, that perhaps I think it might be better for me to go back to my home country and start fresh in a new city there.
Choice two: The 4 of cups makes me think that I will have an opportunity or opportunities handed to me that I wouldn't here. Maybe given Ottawa's location, it's being able to improve the French I've started to learn that will give me an edge when I do apply for residency. Maybe the move will be an exercise in being able to live more in the moment. With the Devil as a negative, I wonder if I won't find myself being lonely and having a crutch like drinking more than I usually do (which is rarely), taking up smoking again, or falling into a wrong crowd or jumping in and out of relationships. The only reason I feel this might happen to me is because I've always been somewhat of a doormat and found myself at the whim of others, so this newfound freedom of being in a new city on my lonesome for the first time would make me take advantage of that like a teenager who sneaks out of home to go partying. Similarly with the 4 of wands, the 6 of wands to me can be interpreted either as being victorious that I've succeeded in attaining residency, or it could also be family welcoming me back and there I am, strutting through my home city's airport on my own, the wreath being whatever experiences I can cherish from my time here. Judgment clarifying this, though, makes me think I will at least submit the application, the people on the card coming forward to be judged by the authorities. Whether it's successful or not, I'm not sure, but at least I would have tried.
I'm sorry if this is too long-winded, but I sure do appreciate anybody weighing in