Kahlie
I'm having a series of dreams centered around "respect". I notice that this is an ongoing issue because I have some problems in my waking life being treated respectfully by various people. Instead of standing up for my beliefs and taking care of it - I've been acting out victim behavior and fear that actually stopping this abuse would lead to worse things.
What confuses me most is that my dream people suddenly get names?! I never had people in my dreams get names that don't relate to known people... I wondered if this is Guide Contact, since I've been so exhausted that I have asked my Guides to make their presence be felt in dreams. Ever since I lost Vincent I haven't been able to establish a connection like I want.
Dream 1
My First Dream is in America, I'm in a Shopping Mall. I'm enjoying seeing all these new foods and are specifically enamored by some cookies/muffins. I am however very tired. The shop manager, named Roger, asks me to go to the till and wants me to put all that I plan to buy in pairs on there. I can't seem to make out why he puts certain things in pairings. For example a jar of jelly with some other sweets. He gets angry at me and the threatens me. I undergo the abuse and continue shopping.
While I'm shopping I meet another man, he's a programmer and also Dutch. I talk to him about Queries and Assembly, and tell him I'm a computer science student. It seems like I have already finished my degree in this dream - he likes talking to me. I can't seem to find garlic sauce and it's important to me to find it. He tries to help me and we continue looking everywhere but no sauce.
I then suddenly enter somewhere were I shouldn't. Two shopping employees a man and a woman come after me and are very upset. They almost pull me back towards the area were I should be. I apologize and tell them I'm just very jet lagged and tired. I also tell them that they have no idea what it is like to have a disease like a Thyroid Problem. The Girl, Hanna, sees my side of it. They bring me to the manager again, and he starts shouting abuse and saying that I should leave.
Hanna picks my side and tells this man that if he continues to display this kind of behavior he won't have any employees left. He truly can't treat customers with so much disrespect.
There are several parts of this dream that I find interesting. Besides the obvious notion that I should stop people from abusing me, I should also try to see if I can find allies, even if they are lower placed then the person who is abusing me. I have been verbally abused on the phone several times by a consultant who is supposed to see if I need help in the household tasks due to my physical limitations. She also made up some rules that she refused to put into writing and later turn out to be non-existent and several other things.
The food types are also interesting. I love garlic sauce but haven't eaten a lot of things lately that come with it. (Have remedied that recently).
I can understand how I do not see the pairings as logical... I still don't see that somebody who is supposed to get medical confirmation can start saying personal things about me.
She is in fact keeping nourishment from me, because if I don't get the help I deserve, I will have to cut down on my revalidation process. Time to finally write that complaint letter.
I find the fact that I speak with somebody else Dutch who is a programmer very cute. I guess this is a subconscious ego boost, letting me know that I can and will study and finish my course! Currently I temporarily stopped since I need the time to rest.
<will continue dream sequence on next posts>
What confuses me most is that my dream people suddenly get names?! I never had people in my dreams get names that don't relate to known people... I wondered if this is Guide Contact, since I've been so exhausted that I have asked my Guides to make their presence be felt in dreams. Ever since I lost Vincent I haven't been able to establish a connection like I want.
Dream 1
My First Dream is in America, I'm in a Shopping Mall. I'm enjoying seeing all these new foods and are specifically enamored by some cookies/muffins. I am however very tired. The shop manager, named Roger, asks me to go to the till and wants me to put all that I plan to buy in pairs on there. I can't seem to make out why he puts certain things in pairings. For example a jar of jelly with some other sweets. He gets angry at me and the threatens me. I undergo the abuse and continue shopping.
While I'm shopping I meet another man, he's a programmer and also Dutch. I talk to him about Queries and Assembly, and tell him I'm a computer science student. It seems like I have already finished my degree in this dream - he likes talking to me. I can't seem to find garlic sauce and it's important to me to find it. He tries to help me and we continue looking everywhere but no sauce.
I then suddenly enter somewhere were I shouldn't. Two shopping employees a man and a woman come after me and are very upset. They almost pull me back towards the area were I should be. I apologize and tell them I'm just very jet lagged and tired. I also tell them that they have no idea what it is like to have a disease like a Thyroid Problem. The Girl, Hanna, sees my side of it. They bring me to the manager again, and he starts shouting abuse and saying that I should leave.
Hanna picks my side and tells this man that if he continues to display this kind of behavior he won't have any employees left. He truly can't treat customers with so much disrespect.
There are several parts of this dream that I find interesting. Besides the obvious notion that I should stop people from abusing me, I should also try to see if I can find allies, even if they are lower placed then the person who is abusing me. I have been verbally abused on the phone several times by a consultant who is supposed to see if I need help in the household tasks due to my physical limitations. She also made up some rules that she refused to put into writing and later turn out to be non-existent and several other things.
The food types are also interesting. I love garlic sauce but haven't eaten a lot of things lately that come with it. (Have remedied that recently).
I can understand how I do not see the pairings as logical... I still don't see that somebody who is supposed to get medical confirmation can start saying personal things about me.
She is in fact keeping nourishment from me, because if I don't get the help I deserve, I will have to cut down on my revalidation process. Time to finally write that complaint letter.
I find the fact that I speak with somebody else Dutch who is a programmer very cute. I guess this is a subconscious ego boost, letting me know that I can and will study and finish my course! Currently I temporarily stopped since I need the time to rest.
<will continue dream sequence on next posts>