Hi SweetSiren!
When I read your post and your dream, the thoughts I am writing down here now came "through" in an interwoven stream of information. Please use only what feels right to you.
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I am clearly sensing, that you are "pregnant" with thoughts of maybe getting pregnant
- at some time in your life
- probably not now
- but the very thought of starting a family and how that would change you and your circumstances is an undercurrent.
The man in the dream feels to me as one of your last sexual partners, but you are as unsure about him in the role of "father to your kids" as you are unsure about "going the family rout" at all.... You hand he, you wrote are not really in tune and although romance was there, you are as unsure about him as you are about yourself.
So in the dream this scenario is "played out", to allow you to experience the feeling of "how it would be" so you can, in waking life, make suitable decisions; to be sober minded about it, to feel out, if pregnancy and having children of your own blood line NOW is a part of your current hopes and dreams.
I also feel, that the recent surgery to get one ovary removed, brought this scenario to the forefront within your subconscious and also drove home the sense, that there is no guarantee, you will be conceiving easy, as your chances are reduced.There also is the added pressure, that these chances get reduced further by waiting.
That to me is symbolized by the dream scenario, where you were not sure in the dream, if you were pregnant or not.
So, in the dream you had twin girls = 2 persons = 2 minds =
You are of 2 minds about the whole scenario:
- The guy, who may not be the right one,
- Having children now or wait and birth other aspects of your soul and your self first
- Having children as a part of your life's dream
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Yes, you will have to go down your own personal Rabbit hole to shed more light on your feelings and find a creative solution as how to incorporate your wishes, needs and dreams into the foreseeable future.
I wish you good luck!