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I'm loving reading everyone's stories!
Since we're on the subject of death and spirits... I did a reading from a spread I found on AT to 'interview' spirits that were around me, and through one of them I had the feeling that it corresponded quite well with one of my grandmothers. She had a disturbing death, her house caught fire at night (we don't really know how) and she suffocated because she couldn't escape in time.
The reading showed me that she had 'lessons' to learn... she wasn't exactly a good person during her life, a bit of a troublemaker in almost every sense. When she died, I had a strong feeling that her death was significant karmically. I'm not sure how to fully express that in words, but this feeling was way stronger than any other feeling, of sadness or even shock. That it was inevitable, and in some way, it was the universe showing me what the Divine was capable of.
I kept remembering my other (more spiritually inclined) late grandmother's words: all our karma is delivered to us within this lifetime.
I know all this makes me sound totally heartless, which I'm really not. I was very fond of the 'evil' grandma, despite all her failings, and it comforts me to know that she's with me in some way.
You know, I actually think that some degree of this feeling is very healthy, especially in women. I've been remembering a time when I was told by a (male) person I'd just met that I had an air of arrogance around me. I was in my early 20s, and I couldn't actually understand what he meant, although I tried to take it on board and self-analyse myself.
A few years and horrible relationships later, I wished I had that 'arrogance' back, because it gave me a sense of knowing who I was, and a kind of self-protection. I feel (maybe quite wrongly) that patriarchal society tries to break down women in all kinds of ways, and it's not egoistic or arrogant to know where you stand in relation with other people.
Sorry for that little rant!
Another way of enhancing these abilities, I'm discovering, is through the study of symbols, in dreams, daydreams or meditations. Jesus is said to have called it the only way to 'reach heaven' or something in that vein. So maybe tarot ties into it quite well, as it's a kind of study of symbols too.
Since we're on the subject of death and spirits... I did a reading from a spread I found on AT to 'interview' spirits that were around me, and through one of them I had the feeling that it corresponded quite well with one of my grandmothers. She had a disturbing death, her house caught fire at night (we don't really know how) and she suffocated because she couldn't escape in time.
The reading showed me that she had 'lessons' to learn... she wasn't exactly a good person during her life, a bit of a troublemaker in almost every sense. When she died, I had a strong feeling that her death was significant karmically. I'm not sure how to fully express that in words, but this feeling was way stronger than any other feeling, of sadness or even shock. That it was inevitable, and in some way, it was the universe showing me what the Divine was capable of.
I kept remembering my other (more spiritually inclined) late grandmother's words: all our karma is delivered to us within this lifetime.
I know all this makes me sound totally heartless, which I'm really not. I was very fond of the 'evil' grandma, despite all her failings, and it comforts me to know that she's with me in some way.
On the one hand, I think it's human to want to think of yourself as "special" in some way, and on the other hand, I resist thinking of myself like that because I don't want to think I'm "better" than other people. Everyone is special in their own way, right? (In my defense, a girl who works for me told me recently that she prefers working with me over other project managers because I *don't* come across as thinking I'm better or more important or out ranking people. This made me feel great because I actively try to make myself approachable, but then another side of me wants to interpret this as "I'm better than other project managers." LOL! I don't really think that, but it's human nature.)
You know, I actually think that some degree of this feeling is very healthy, especially in women. I've been remembering a time when I was told by a (male) person I'd just met that I had an air of arrogance around me. I was in my early 20s, and I couldn't actually understand what he meant, although I tried to take it on board and self-analyse myself.
A few years and horrible relationships later, I wished I had that 'arrogance' back, because it gave me a sense of knowing who I was, and a kind of self-protection. I feel (maybe quite wrongly) that patriarchal society tries to break down women in all kinds of ways, and it's not egoistic or arrogant to know where you stand in relation with other people.
Sorry for that little rant!
Another way of enhancing these abilities, I'm discovering, is through the study of symbols, in dreams, daydreams or meditations. Jesus is said to have called it the only way to 'reach heaven' or something in that vein. So maybe tarot ties into it quite well, as it's a kind of study of symbols too.