I apologize for taking so long to get back to you!
I had meditated on what was discussed here the day after your original request, and I had some thoughts but hadn't gotten around to gathering and posting them until now.
I focused on any words and phrases that somehow jumped out at me throughout my day. I went out to dinner with my husband that night. We went to a sports bar and played some vocabulary trivia. When a word was defined, the phrase "egotistical boss" jumped out at me as the word was used in an example sentence. I can't be sure if it's only because of what you already discussed with me that I noticed and focused on the phrase so much.
This is something that's stood out in my personal thoughts lately, even before our discussion, but I keep thinking, "Seemingly insignificant events can have great importance." I have needed to remind myself of that for sure lately as I'm having trouble getting my own career off the ground. I think of it in terms of, I wish I could be doing more good with my life, but the little things can be big things. I definitely had these thoughts while meditating on your career troubles though I can't be sure if it's only for my sake or if you may find something for you in it.
Although I had said I wouldn't bring any specific divination techniques into this, I was reading a book and curiously flipped to a random page wondering if a phrase for you might stick out at me. I've been reading Irvin Yalom's "The Gift of Therapy" and that is the book I flipped through. The phrase "learning of my mother's death" is what stuck out to me. I'm not sure if maybe you or someone else physically lost your mother recently, though I was struck by a more metaphorical possibility: I admire your story of having stood up for a child even though it harmed your career, and that is admirable, but what struck me was that maybe you are putting too big a focus on "mothering" in the sense of feeling responsible for people like that child you helped. I wouldn't say to stop caring for people entirely, of course, but many mothers can go through a difficult time of "letting go" as their children age. While it is admirable to care for others, we must remember to let them care for themselves too, and we must not lose our own identities in caring for others. Does that strike a chord for you in any way? I could be way off! I'd appreciate any comments you may have though!
