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The other day, I had a conversation with my husband (his nickname is Shroom) which was quite disturbing. He told me of some recurring dreams he'd been having involving some much loved people in his life.
One dream had to do with his best mate's eulogy. His best mate has no need of a eulogy at this stage so you can understand that this dream would be a bit frightening to him. (Just to clarify here, in Australia, a mate is not the person you marry or are partnered with. A mate is a friend.)
The other more disturbing dream was something to do with our little boy dying. He said he didn't really know many details, how it happened or how old he was when it happened (he said a bit older than he is now, maybe six months or so), just that it was our fault. Something that coud have been avoided, in other words.
This scared the bejeebies out of me, as you can imagine. Especially so because Shroom has told me of a recurring dream he had three nights in a row, many years ago when he was just a kid about his grandma dying. After the third night of the dream, she died.
What's even scarier is that this past weekend we went to visit his parents & when I was having a chat to his mum, she mentioned that she sometimes has premonition dreams. I hadn't even mentioned Shroom's dreams to her, the topic just came up on its own.
I can't imagine anything worse than our child dying .. especially if it was something that we caused.
I know it's natural to worry about your child, but when I hear of dreams like this coming from someone who's had experience before with this type of dream & then it seems it runs in the family, it really, really scares me.
I suppose I'm posting this here to get it off my chest .. for reassurance, too. I mean, if it's anyone's time to go, they're going to go, no matter what we do .. but the thought of losing the one person that I have no doubt I love the most I've ever loved anyone, well, it absolutely kills me inside.
One dream had to do with his best mate's eulogy. His best mate has no need of a eulogy at this stage so you can understand that this dream would be a bit frightening to him. (Just to clarify here, in Australia, a mate is not the person you marry or are partnered with. A mate is a friend.)
The other more disturbing dream was something to do with our little boy dying. He said he didn't really know many details, how it happened or how old he was when it happened (he said a bit older than he is now, maybe six months or so), just that it was our fault. Something that coud have been avoided, in other words.
This scared the bejeebies out of me, as you can imagine. Especially so because Shroom has told me of a recurring dream he had three nights in a row, many years ago when he was just a kid about his grandma dying. After the third night of the dream, she died.
What's even scarier is that this past weekend we went to visit his parents & when I was having a chat to his mum, she mentioned that she sometimes has premonition dreams. I hadn't even mentioned Shroom's dreams to her, the topic just came up on its own.
I can't imagine anything worse than our child dying .. especially if it was something that we caused.
I know it's natural to worry about your child, but when I hear of dreams like this coming from someone who's had experience before with this type of dream & then it seems it runs in the family, it really, really scares me.
I suppose I'm posting this here to get it off my chest .. for reassurance, too. I mean, if it's anyone's time to go, they're going to go, no matter what we do .. but the thought of losing the one person that I have no doubt I love the most I've ever loved anyone, well, it absolutely kills me inside.