Sophie-David
For those who may be interested discussing in the experiences and results following from the practice of Centering Meditation, I have opened this thread as a companion to CM: Twenty Minutes Towards Enlightenment which discusses the theory and practice itself.
I have recently returned from a Wisdom School led by the radical Christian priest, hermit and author, Cynthia Bourgeault. You wouldn't think you could learn wisdom at a school, but in a sense you can - but only indirectly from a teacher since the wisdom actually comes from within, the teacher only helping catalyze this process. Each day there was a routine which included three hours of teaching; an hour question period; up to three hours of meditation and chant; just over an hour of light physical work or somatic education (connecting with one's body image); three meals; and two and a half hours of free time. Half of the teaching time was based on Cynthia's book, Centering Prayer and Inner Awakening, and half on Jacques Lusseyran's book And There Was Light: Blind Hero of the French Resistance - the story of a blind boy who learned to see.
We discussed egoic consciousness, which is the state in which the ego operates. Egoic consciousness forces us to react in predictable ways, almost like a computer. The so-called "false self" uses three programs which operate in the subconscious: power/control, security/survival and esteem/affection. They drive the egoic consciousness, and when there any perceived threats to these programs the ego reacts in anger and pain. It then seeks to reduce its pain and promote its pleasure, often at the expense of others. In fact the ego is inherently violent and territorial, for its pleasure seeking would logically lead it to try to corner resources and control people. We see this expressed in lotteries, dreams of being president, escapist movies and so forth.
Most significantly, the ego works in polarities, defining the world into subject and object. In particular the ego operates by focusing on the negative, what something is not. It thinks that black is not white; evil is not good; a cat is not a dog, not an elephant, not a horse. It makes dualistic lists to describe itself: "I am David (not Bob, not John, not God, not nothing), I like photography (not bobsledding, not needlepoint), and I dislike fried food (not oranges, not sushi)".
Beyond the egoic lies "unitive" consciousness. The unitive transcends the dualities: it is non-dualistic. As the Beatles sang, "I am you and you are me and we are altogether". Even the most rule bound egoic person is capable of excursions into the unitive - for example if you were to see someone drowning you "instinctually" jump in to save them, even at risk to yourself. The ego would naturally seek to preserve itself from danger, but unitive consciousness sees no difference between the person drowning and the person the ego thinks it is. In saving the "other" the unitive mind recognizes it is saving itself.
From the egoic standpoint, it appears that nothingness is the key to unitive or enlightened consciousness. And I found this out in a very practical, repeatable way through the practice of Centering Prayer, which I prefer to call Centering Meditation. In fact the nothingness of Centering Meditation is not empty at all: its reality is simply more subtle. Enlightenment is not really just for the monks or the hermits in caves, it is free and readily available to all. But it is so radical that its truth is unacceptable to egoic society, the "weegoic" institutions do not operate well with it, and it has always been forced to the fringes. Of course the esoteric arts such as the Tarot are expressions of the unitive consciousness, hence they too have been largely alienated from our officially approved culture.
The small mind of the ego must learn to die for the universal to arise. In fact a well lived and growth filled life is made up of a series of ego deaths. The more well developed and healthy the "large mind" of unitive consciousness has been developed, the more inconsequential becomes the final physical death, for this death can only be yet another egoic death. Unitive consciousness exists outside of time and space - it is undying and even now resides in the eternal.
But I think it is important to remember that the ego is neither inherently good or evil, it is simply very limited. The ego is however how we can relate most effectively to our incarnation in a dualistic world. A healthy and well balanced ego is a worthy goal, a polished and well tuned violin. The mistake is in believing that I am that violin. In unitive consciousness I realize that I am the violinist and the ego is only my instrument.
For several days I have wanted to share the practice of Centering Meditation in the forums. But I have been strangely reluctant to do so, it feels so personal, almost like sharing the details of a love making - which indeed it is. For this is another way in which almost every adult has experienced unitive consciousness: in the practice of healthy human sexuality there is almost always a moment when time ceases to exist, and the two are completely one, each given wholly to the other.
Already I have realized that skipping a day of Centering Meditation is a loss I would not willingly make. Where until now I have largely relied on dreams to further my integrative growth, I now see the importance of using this practical tool during my wakeful hours.
As well as being a doorway to the infinite, CM also stimulates healing at the psychological or egoic level. Please see an example in Post #21 of Spirit Guide Group: Draws, Volume Two.
I have recently returned from a Wisdom School led by the radical Christian priest, hermit and author, Cynthia Bourgeault. You wouldn't think you could learn wisdom at a school, but in a sense you can - but only indirectly from a teacher since the wisdom actually comes from within, the teacher only helping catalyze this process. Each day there was a routine which included three hours of teaching; an hour question period; up to three hours of meditation and chant; just over an hour of light physical work or somatic education (connecting with one's body image); three meals; and two and a half hours of free time. Half of the teaching time was based on Cynthia's book, Centering Prayer and Inner Awakening, and half on Jacques Lusseyran's book And There Was Light: Blind Hero of the French Resistance - the story of a blind boy who learned to see.
We discussed egoic consciousness, which is the state in which the ego operates. Egoic consciousness forces us to react in predictable ways, almost like a computer. The so-called "false self" uses three programs which operate in the subconscious: power/control, security/survival and esteem/affection. They drive the egoic consciousness, and when there any perceived threats to these programs the ego reacts in anger and pain. It then seeks to reduce its pain and promote its pleasure, often at the expense of others. In fact the ego is inherently violent and territorial, for its pleasure seeking would logically lead it to try to corner resources and control people. We see this expressed in lotteries, dreams of being president, escapist movies and so forth.
Most significantly, the ego works in polarities, defining the world into subject and object. In particular the ego operates by focusing on the negative, what something is not. It thinks that black is not white; evil is not good; a cat is not a dog, not an elephant, not a horse. It makes dualistic lists to describe itself: "I am David (not Bob, not John, not God, not nothing), I like photography (not bobsledding, not needlepoint), and I dislike fried food (not oranges, not sushi)".
Beyond the egoic lies "unitive" consciousness. The unitive transcends the dualities: it is non-dualistic. As the Beatles sang, "I am you and you are me and we are altogether". Even the most rule bound egoic person is capable of excursions into the unitive - for example if you were to see someone drowning you "instinctually" jump in to save them, even at risk to yourself. The ego would naturally seek to preserve itself from danger, but unitive consciousness sees no difference between the person drowning and the person the ego thinks it is. In saving the "other" the unitive mind recognizes it is saving itself.
From the egoic standpoint, it appears that nothingness is the key to unitive or enlightened consciousness. And I found this out in a very practical, repeatable way through the practice of Centering Prayer, which I prefer to call Centering Meditation. In fact the nothingness of Centering Meditation is not empty at all: its reality is simply more subtle. Enlightenment is not really just for the monks or the hermits in caves, it is free and readily available to all. But it is so radical that its truth is unacceptable to egoic society, the "weegoic" institutions do not operate well with it, and it has always been forced to the fringes. Of course the esoteric arts such as the Tarot are expressions of the unitive consciousness, hence they too have been largely alienated from our officially approved culture.
The small mind of the ego must learn to die for the universal to arise. In fact a well lived and growth filled life is made up of a series of ego deaths. The more well developed and healthy the "large mind" of unitive consciousness has been developed, the more inconsequential becomes the final physical death, for this death can only be yet another egoic death. Unitive consciousness exists outside of time and space - it is undying and even now resides in the eternal.
But I think it is important to remember that the ego is neither inherently good or evil, it is simply very limited. The ego is however how we can relate most effectively to our incarnation in a dualistic world. A healthy and well balanced ego is a worthy goal, a polished and well tuned violin. The mistake is in believing that I am that violin. In unitive consciousness I realize that I am the violinist and the ego is only my instrument.
For several days I have wanted to share the practice of Centering Meditation in the forums. But I have been strangely reluctant to do so, it feels so personal, almost like sharing the details of a love making - which indeed it is. For this is another way in which almost every adult has experienced unitive consciousness: in the practice of healthy human sexuality there is almost always a moment when time ceases to exist, and the two are completely one, each given wholly to the other.
Already I have realized that skipping a day of Centering Meditation is a loss I would not willingly make. Where until now I have largely relied on dreams to further my integrative growth, I now see the importance of using this practical tool during my wakeful hours.
As well as being a doorway to the infinite, CM also stimulates healing at the psychological or egoic level. Please see an example in Post #21 of Spirit Guide Group: Draws, Volume Two.