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Originally Posted by Promise
While I have been using only my ToP, I can't say that I've been exactly studying it. To make a long story short, what was supposed to be a routine surgical operation turned into much more than that, and after kind of accepting the devastation of it all, it's been hard for me to get my head anywhere near normal. Being 20 and having to reconcile with the fact that you'll never be able to have children is quite...I can't really describe it. But it's not nice. Then to add insult to injury, I lost a long-term relationship over it.
But even when I didn't feel like studying or reading or even getting out of bed, my ToP was there with me, and even if it was just mindless shuffling or taking out the Majors and playing Solitaire, I used it all the same.
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((((Promise))))
I'm so sorry for you, that's really been rough, I hope you will have a smoother path to go on now.
Although you have not been studying the ToP on an intellectual level, it looks like you have really bonded with your deck. You can always do the study later but you have surely bonded emotionally
Well I must confess I used another deck last week...I was going to do an important reading for myself, and while I was preparing the Druidcraft kept popping into my head, so I felt I could not use any other deck but the DC...
it was an insightful reading so it was not for nothing.
And I also used a Marseille but that was the only deck I had with me at the time. The SW is really too big to carry around with me and do a quick reading without causing too much attention. I don't feel the need so much to do readings outside the home, but now I really did, for once. So I used what I had with me.
I am still using the SW and still studying it, and I really love the deck but more and more I think: why oh why does it have to be so big and unmanageable ? I am really missing my decks now that I can handle better. It is really a drawback of the SW, and the deck really speaks clearly to me and there are so many cards in this deck that I love !