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Hi Kazz1, thank you for being patient as I was getting back to catching up on these. Please don't hesitate to give honest feedback.
1. Significator/Self - Aloneness (IX) (Hermit)
You are currently learning to be alone with yourself. There is no other person you need to be complete and you are learning that the light you have within will be enough to sustain you. Take this time in isolation to realize that everything you have inside is enough to feel whole.
2. Finances - Mind (Page of Clouds/Swords)
You seem to be in a head trip about finances. Perhaps this has been on your mind a lot because you don't feel you have enough, or the right access, or are spending appropriately. There is something that needs to be communicated. The advice here is to let go of the cloud that is in your mind. If you write down all your concerns you will find that they are always there, it is time to let go.
3. Communication - Beyond Illusion (XX) (Judgement)
You are learning or need to learn to communicate without judgement. You communicate what you think should be, what is right, what is wrong, you may be opinionated. It is a lesson or transition now to let those go and communicate beyond illusion, beyond opinion, and only from your deepest truth.
4. Home - Politics (7 of Clouds/Swords)
Typically this house refers to earlier childhood or adolesence. Perhaps parents or siblings. You were living in an illusion there, not sure of which face was the true face. The mask slips and the reality is behind but the truth is that both masks are false. There may be a sense you don't know the reality of your family and home life. Like something is hidding and yet to be revealed.
5. Love and Passion - Compromise (6 of Rainbows/Pentacles)
There is something in your love life where you are compromising your own inner truth, whether it be for control, power or approval of the other person. You know what is right in this situation but you are left compromising that inner knowing for something else. Let go of that compromise and live to your own self.
6. Work and Health - The Lovers (VI)
Seems your work situation is being complicated with a matter of attraction. This card warns the querant that not all sexual attraction or love as we know it is true love. It is finding an honor of a person as an individual....usually that person reflects aspects of ourselves we need to work on. Perhaps this complication is a lesson to look at yourself and decide what type of person you need to be and that will bring true love from within. It is after all, a fact that we are born and die alone so finding love within oneself is the most honorable course of action.
7. Relationships, Marriage, Contracts - Success (6 of Fire/Wands)
If you are not in a committed relationship or marriage, I would take this to mean perhaps work contracts or other type official agreements in your life. You are successful in those and are feeling on top of the world. You seem to know through all the peaks and valleys, if one contract fails another will come through and you just seem to ride the wave of what comes.
8. Death, Others - Conditioning (XV) (Devil)
This house perpetually confuses me as to what exactly it applies to so feedback is encouraged. This card talks about a lion raised among sheep and does not realize his true potential. As with the Devil in all decks, it talks about releasing attachements to what we know. Only by releasing attachements to a conditioned way of thinking are we able to truly be ourselves. I'm going to intuitively say this may have to do with how you relate to others. Perhaps you are stuck in a pattern of allowing the sheep to condition you into thinking you are less than what you are. Perhaps you have not yet found your inner lion amongst the crowd.
9. Religion and Spirituality - Inner Voice (II) (High Priestess)
With regard to spirituality you are connected to your higher self and internal sense of knowing. The fact that you are on a tarot forum suggests you are connected with this intuitive voice within and are using this to guide your spiritual side. Like a dolphin, you dive deep into your deepest waters of emotions and emerge with a sense of knowing. I think combined with the card above you are learning to relate this with the outside world and others perhaps?
10. Career - Turning In (4 of Water/Cups)
Career issues seem to be creating an external chatter which you need to calm your mind. I'm wondering if the lovers card in the work house have to do a little with this noise. This is guidance to meditate and turn inward to calm those outside voices and find yourself within.
11. Society and Friends - Change (X) (Wheel of Fortune)
Major change going on with how you relate to society and friends. I think again this is somewhat related to the 8th house of others. The 8th house has to do with people you may not know on an intimate level while this house are those more closely connected to you; colleagues, friends, etc. This change is destiny, fate or karma. There is nothing you are doing to bring it on or control. In fact, the advice is to release all control and let whatever change is happening amonst these people to just be what it is....you can't stop it, slow it or manipulate. You just have to get in the center of the wheel and accept whatever happens as it is meant to happen.
12. Fears, Karma, the Hidden - The Rebel (IV) (Emperor)
This seems to relate to some of the other cards in the spread. The hidden aspect of yourself or your shadow has to do with living confidently in your own truth, regardless of what others think or say. You have the ability to manifest anything you want if you accept the shadow that no control is needed but simply a firey knowing and rejection of conditioning of what should be done based on society.
Center Card - Overall Energy - Schizophrenia (2 of Clouds/Swords)
The overall energy of your life right now is feeling split, of two minds, two opinions of many things or perhaps one major thing which is driving all the areas of your life. You feel caught between a rock and hard place. Should you say yes or no, should you go or stay, you may try to make a list of pros and cons and still not be able to decide. If you aren't able to follow your heart, the advice is to just jump as your heart will stop beating from the adrenaline and will find itself in the process.