Sophie-David said:
The remote control showerhead is a definite anomaly, and therefore worth a particular focus. What does it suggest to you?
Cleansing, especially of specific body parts, and I think of Energy Healing work. I really could press buttons that would shower left/right and different parts. It was quite handy. I don't remember which specific parts I showered, except for my shoulders. (Which have been hurting a lot recently).
Sophie-David said:
Do you mean "willingness" as in surrender of the will, or exertion of the will?
Willingness as in willing to take the next step. Willing to let go of old and bad behaviour patterns. etc. (So exertion of the will). Plus I did a meditation on love, bathing everybody in love and light, including memories that were painful. (not all of them).
The more I think about these past dreams, the more 'complex' they get. I feel they had to do with me, with the Spirit... I see so much connections.
I feel the dreams speak of both instances of sexual break in. One I was warned in advance, strongly, by my third eye, but I didn't listen to it. Just as in the dream, I thought that just putting in a warning device would be enough...
The other is clearly something that was completely unexpected (upwards falling cards), and gave me the feeling I needed to return them... (Yes, thinking back, the person was a complete manipulative bastard, luring me all the way, pretending it was a game etc. (Cards are so appropriate as a symbol...))... Also the uncomfortable level in the room with people seems to indicate my continued unease with people that are associated with him...
I know that technically, logically, intellectually this is not fair. Yet, more and more I'm acknowledging that I do not
have to be fair. I can have my own emotions and I do not have to justify them. (BIG step for me)
The Pregnacy dream I guess indicates my ambivalence in still dealing with these issues. I continue to still feel a level of responsibility and guilt (pregnancy) and are at one hand unwilling to let go (thinking it's the easy way out, refusing to let go of the hurt, refusing to let it go as to keep it as a warning etc.) and at the other hand I am.
It's interesting how I symbolise it as a pregnancy. Not so strange because it can be the result of rape, but strange in the way that I could actually feel the heartbeat of the child. As if a third innocent is trapped...
It indicates my still fractured state I think... More to think about.
Thank you for your interpretation Sophie-David, a lot more to think about. Actually, I usually just write down my thoughts, not even in my dreaming journal, just here. Let it simmer for a bit, and then write it in my journal later....
Last night I dreamt I was designing a GUI. (Graphical User Interface). Odd how that word is pronounced gooey... I was only a child, 6 probably. It was really surprising... A call for more creativity I guess...
Further more I had continous dreams of shopping in Second Hand stores trying to find a box. Either they were just being sold to somebody else, or they weren't what I wanted. (In my waking life I am looking for a box to hold my Tarot Collection)
I think my Spirit Guide is involved, because even though I do not see him directly or hear him directly in those dreams, I do 'feel' him. I have much more strength... And my lessons in negativity continue. I'm in night class alright...
I think my next dream sequence (of last night) deals with my negativity in Creativity. My hopeless perfectionism, that kills the instinctive joy... I'll continue to think about it...
Kahlie