MacMorrighan
Hey guys, I was wondering how many people use the "Shadow Card", as I call it--the last card at the bottom of the deck following a spread, which signifies the subconscious mind. I'm curious about what others call this card. I've heard it called the "Teacher Card" or the "Deep Secrets Card". I call it the "Shadow Card" because it reminds me of the New Moon, which is the "hidden"/ unconscious face of the Moon.
The other night I was in a mild state of trance--between dreaming and consciousness--when, albeit my eyes were closed, I had a rather panoramic vision of the living room where I was laying as my Familiar,* Spider, crept near to me.
So, I decided to perform a Daily Draw with my trusted tarot deck, and I asked my Familiar what lesson(s) I should learn today... I shuffled the cards for a rather long time since my intuition hadn't prompted me to stop and draw a card for several minutes. Like all of my uncanny and deeply meaningful draws, I drew the EIGHT OF SWORDS! Since I do not draw many cards from the Suit of Swords, I had to look it up, and I started crying when I read the various description, as they PERFECTLY reflected what I have been feeling and enduring for the past three weeks, to no avail...a rather drawn out period of depression:
"Jupiter in Gemini: Feeling fenced in...restrictions...a trap...no progress is possible...imprisonment...weakness...too many ideas with no direction...blocked energy or creativity...bound by your own mental obstructions...waiting to be rescued...feeling vulnerable and isolated...self-sabotaging mind...victimization."
I have used many of these same adjectives to describe how isolated and trapped I have been feeling in my isolated town. My depression has been so bad that I haven' been able to lift a finger and work on my magnum opus on herb-lore. Interestingly enough (or perhaps ironically), my Shadow Card, as I call it, was the Strength Card, which is also the Eight of the Major Arcana of the RWS deck/ clones (Strength, however, is 11 in my own preferred deck, the Ancient Italian Tarot by Lo Scarabeo).
*I have three Familiars, or animal helper spirits: Spider, Snake, and Owl, each is associated with Witchcraft, occult knowledge, and the Underworld. A "Familiar" represents the species as a whole, rather than an individual critter. A more common term for this helper-spirit is a "Totem". One book that I recommend on the subject is Dr. Emma Wilby's "Cunning Folk and Familiar Spirits".
The other night I was in a mild state of trance--between dreaming and consciousness--when, albeit my eyes were closed, I had a rather panoramic vision of the living room where I was laying as my Familiar,* Spider, crept near to me.
So, I decided to perform a Daily Draw with my trusted tarot deck, and I asked my Familiar what lesson(s) I should learn today... I shuffled the cards for a rather long time since my intuition hadn't prompted me to stop and draw a card for several minutes. Like all of my uncanny and deeply meaningful draws, I drew the EIGHT OF SWORDS! Since I do not draw many cards from the Suit of Swords, I had to look it up, and I started crying when I read the various description, as they PERFECTLY reflected what I have been feeling and enduring for the past three weeks, to no avail...a rather drawn out period of depression:
"Jupiter in Gemini: Feeling fenced in...restrictions...a trap...no progress is possible...imprisonment...weakness...too many ideas with no direction...blocked energy or creativity...bound by your own mental obstructions...waiting to be rescued...feeling vulnerable and isolated...self-sabotaging mind...victimization."
I have used many of these same adjectives to describe how isolated and trapped I have been feeling in my isolated town. My depression has been so bad that I haven' been able to lift a finger and work on my magnum opus on herb-lore. Interestingly enough (or perhaps ironically), my Shadow Card, as I call it, was the Strength Card, which is also the Eight of the Major Arcana of the RWS deck/ clones (Strength, however, is 11 in my own preferred deck, the Ancient Italian Tarot by Lo Scarabeo).
*I have three Familiars, or animal helper spirits: Spider, Snake, and Owl, each is associated with Witchcraft, occult knowledge, and the Underworld. A "Familiar" represents the species as a whole, rather than an individual critter. A more common term for this helper-spirit is a "Totem". One book that I recommend on the subject is Dr. Emma Wilby's "Cunning Folk and Familiar Spirits".