Psychebleu
Have any of you experienced this?
My parents became born-again Christians (as an act and commitment, rather than a style, if you know what I mean), in the last several years - my mom was always religious (and it definitely was a style). Yet, although my mother did voice her thoughts that is could be a slippery slope, etc. - neither parent insisted (even when I lived with them) that I stop reading Tarot, or to get rid of them. Although my mom did share her 'concern' that my practice and studies in tarot, astrology, etc, was an obsession.
I preface with the above info, just to show that it has never been a case of intolerance for tarot, and the like.
Actually thinking about it, my father was the reason for the "hands-off" approach - even though it was members on his side of the family who show the most intolerance (his brother told my parents, they should not have tarot cards in there house). Now that he has passed, the attitude toward any divination I do is becoming irksome.
Okay, I have been interested in various forms of divination since I was a child. It was dreams, then astrology, tarot, runes... I still can't say I'm the most religious type faithful person, but I think I've always had a general faith in life, and still do. As I child, my religious tendencies were encouraged- like I said, my mother was always religious (Baptist Christianity); but as I went beyond dogma, and explored - and more so, shared and seem to actually help others through astrology and tarot readings...things became strained.
Honestly, when I'm talking to my mother on the phones or something, and I bring up a reading or something - she completely switches the subject or immediately drifts off. Even though she's always talking about God, what she's praying for, etc. Sharing dreams she's had or impressions she gets, and even magical thinking crap like the fact that she's praying to win the friggin' lottery! Do, I cut her off and tell her I think it's ridiculous? Nope. She takes everything as a personal attack as it is, far be it for me to tell her what I think she should or shouldn't be praying for...anyway, winning the lottery would be a good thing. lol But, you know what I mean, it's more a matter of her constantly using energy in a unproductive manner.
One time my 14 year old niece wanted a reading, and my mother decided she didn't need one - and her mother (my sister) agreed. Fine...she's a minor, you make those decisions. I'm always ethical, and don't see how a reading hurts, but regardless, it's not my place to insist. Again, it’s not a matter of them thinking tarot evil or anything, as I’ve done readings for both of them.
The point is, that I think they don't want me reading for her. Had she asked to have a reading with some lady at a carnival, I don't think they would have had a problem; don't think they would have taken the reading seriously, but I don't think they would have minded.
All this to say, it bothers me the roles family often gives you...of any group of people you've come to know and function in. My mother has proclaimed herself the spiritually gifted one - she talks in tongues and goes to church, etc. Oddly enough, she excepts some of my opinions - once her church pastor does a sermon on exactly that...months or years after I said the same damn thing. Then, it has value. When her pastor friend (female, different from church pastor) told her after a prayer meeting at my parent’s place and meeting me (when I lived with her), and reflecting on things I've said, or divinations I've done for others (that my mother must have shared with her), said that with tarot or not, I was a prophet - THEN, all the things I'd been into had some value…for a short time anyway.
ARRGGH! I just irks me to no end that she is so much about surface appearance, and how spiritual proclivities make you 'special', when I'm not, and she STILL resents me for it.
Sorry, but I've needed to get that off my chest for a while now...and that dynamic has crept in again, and I suspect that her and my sister now feel fine ostracizing me again, now that my father (the only one who understood, or cared for me) has passed.
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Got some stuff to run and do, but I really look forward to coming back and reading of your experiences.
My parents became born-again Christians (as an act and commitment, rather than a style, if you know what I mean), in the last several years - my mom was always religious (and it definitely was a style). Yet, although my mother did voice her thoughts that is could be a slippery slope, etc. - neither parent insisted (even when I lived with them) that I stop reading Tarot, or to get rid of them. Although my mom did share her 'concern' that my practice and studies in tarot, astrology, etc, was an obsession.
I preface with the above info, just to show that it has never been a case of intolerance for tarot, and the like.
Actually thinking about it, my father was the reason for the "hands-off" approach - even though it was members on his side of the family who show the most intolerance (his brother told my parents, they should not have tarot cards in there house). Now that he has passed, the attitude toward any divination I do is becoming irksome.
Okay, I have been interested in various forms of divination since I was a child. It was dreams, then astrology, tarot, runes... I still can't say I'm the most religious type faithful person, but I think I've always had a general faith in life, and still do. As I child, my religious tendencies were encouraged- like I said, my mother was always religious (Baptist Christianity); but as I went beyond dogma, and explored - and more so, shared and seem to actually help others through astrology and tarot readings...things became strained.
Honestly, when I'm talking to my mother on the phones or something, and I bring up a reading or something - she completely switches the subject or immediately drifts off. Even though she's always talking about God, what she's praying for, etc. Sharing dreams she's had or impressions she gets, and even magical thinking crap like the fact that she's praying to win the friggin' lottery! Do, I cut her off and tell her I think it's ridiculous? Nope. She takes everything as a personal attack as it is, far be it for me to tell her what I think she should or shouldn't be praying for...anyway, winning the lottery would be a good thing. lol But, you know what I mean, it's more a matter of her constantly using energy in a unproductive manner.
One time my 14 year old niece wanted a reading, and my mother decided she didn't need one - and her mother (my sister) agreed. Fine...she's a minor, you make those decisions. I'm always ethical, and don't see how a reading hurts, but regardless, it's not my place to insist. Again, it’s not a matter of them thinking tarot evil or anything, as I’ve done readings for both of them.
The point is, that I think they don't want me reading for her. Had she asked to have a reading with some lady at a carnival, I don't think they would have had a problem; don't think they would have taken the reading seriously, but I don't think they would have minded.
All this to say, it bothers me the roles family often gives you...of any group of people you've come to know and function in. My mother has proclaimed herself the spiritually gifted one - she talks in tongues and goes to church, etc. Oddly enough, she excepts some of my opinions - once her church pastor does a sermon on exactly that...months or years after I said the same damn thing. Then, it has value. When her pastor friend (female, different from church pastor) told her after a prayer meeting at my parent’s place and meeting me (when I lived with her), and reflecting on things I've said, or divinations I've done for others (that my mother must have shared with her), said that with tarot or not, I was a prophet - THEN, all the things I'd been into had some value…for a short time anyway.
ARRGGH! I just irks me to no end that she is so much about surface appearance, and how spiritual proclivities make you 'special', when I'm not, and she STILL resents me for it.
Sorry, but I've needed to get that off my chest for a while now...and that dynamic has crept in again, and I suspect that her and my sister now feel fine ostracizing me again, now that my father (the only one who understood, or cared for me) has passed.
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Got some stuff to run and do, but I really look forward to coming back and reading of your experiences.