Secret Wishes
thanksGirl Archer
Hello zhadee, I know you have already read for me but I was wondering if I could sit again?
Actually it is about a career path dilemma, if you could enable me to figure out my heart's secret desire professionally speaking (as in knowing what the heart desires would help me identify which path would get me there), it would go a long way in helping me settle the corporate law versus litigation conflict I have been and begin the process for the manifestation of that desire into concrete reality.
P.S. really do hope you will be able to take me on for another read
Actually it is about a career path dilemma, if you could enable me to figure out my heart's secret desire professionally speaking (as in knowing what the heart desires would help me identify which path would get me there), it would go a long way in helping me settle the corporate law versus litigation conflict I have been and begin the process for the manifestation of that desire into concrete reality.
P.S. really do hope you will be able to take me on for another read
zhadee
Hello zhadee, I know you have already read for me but I was wondering if I could sit again?
Actually it is about a career path dilemma, if you could enable me to figure out my heart's secret desire professionally speaking (as in knowing what the heart desires would help me identify which path would get me there), it would go a long way in helping me settle the corporate law versus litigation conflict I have been and begin the process for the manifestation of that desire into concrete reality.
P.S. really do hope you will be able to take me on for another read
aye, of course you'll get a second reading ♥
I have a few day off next week, so I may look into that career path dilemma of yours
Girl Archer
zhadee
Hi Barb,
The entire reading is the path to the final phrase: your secret wish is...
A swinging from pro and con and back again. Hence the last phrase is point-blank.
The outcome does not present a certain desire or image, but the wish is the desire's and image's source.
We use the Dondorf's Lenormand for our readings.
1. Your secret wish - Tower.
2. I heart it - Bear.
3. I dislike it - Man.
4. restraint - Paths.
5. fulfillment - Garden.
The Tower symbolises your secret wish. The Tower rises up to the sky. Towers serve different purposes: a bellfry makes the bell audible for many miles. It obtains a hearing, it receives attention. The watchtower provides farsightedness, any approaching dangers are early visible.
The Tower watches the future coming nearer. The Tower is an observatory where the astronom watches the stars. We read the stars to learn about our fate.
From a higher perspective, we stand above it all, we can see clearer.
C.G. Jung says about the meaning of a tower: "A place of maturation - a womb or a maternal figure in which I could be as I am, was and will be. "
Bears move into a large-scale habitat. They back out, but they observe their environment curiously. The Bear embodies the celtic goddess Artio who protects the pregnant and nursing women. The tenderly caring bear mother protecting its cubs embodies the image of motherhood, as the protective power of the Great Mother.
The massive and vigorous vitality of the bear embodies the power of nature par excellence. The bear adapts with strength and intelligence to the adversities of nature. The bear embodies wild, powerful and original vibrancy, originality and intelligence. As a power animal it conveys peace and serenity, earthiness.
The Bear shows how you like your wish. You like your wish in an 'ursine' manner. The Tower is solid, no wind will rock its foundations. It symbolises self-confidence. The Bear as an animal of power finds repose, but it also may roam the country. The Bear is liberty in motion as a bulky body.
The Tower does not need to move, it can see all anyway. The things come to it. Its freedom is the freedom of mind and thought.
The Bear wants to break free, he wants to fill the freedom of thought with its body. It wants to embody the freedom in its own flesh and blood. The Bear does not think, but he wants to feel what is thought of inside the Tower. The Tower is mental life, the Bear is emotional life. The Tower thinks ahead to the future, it has an idea which is the wish we presently not know.
The Man shows how you dislike your wish. The Man is your ego. The human figure in a dream symbolises conscious or awareness enabled areas of the psyche, while animals embody unconscious side of the psyche.
The Man thinks. He wants to think his own thoughts. He thinks: I want to be a cultivated man. I don't want to be a Bear. This Man has no interest to incorporate the thoughts which are thought in the Tower, he only wants egoity. He does not want to lose his identity, he does not care about emotions. He only wants to think and talk. He wants to be logical and rational. He calculates his success, he wants to archieve something. He thinks of his own benefit, he does not want to play out, and he does not wish to deal with fate. He wants to be effective, and he wants to be realistic. He is the realisty principle. He wants to attain the end he has in view, not to fulfill a destiny.
The Man does not has his head in the clouds. From his point of view, the Tower's ideas and thoughts are too lifted.
The Paths is the restraint. The restraint are outside factors, it the world denying your wish. The Paths say: there are ways you may walk. These are Man's ways. Realistic ways. Not imaginative ones. You must not roam freely, you need to follow a well-trodden path. The Paths do not follow your thoughts, instead your thoughts should follow the Paths. Not your wish is the way, but the way is the aim.
You may have as many aims as you like, but wishes only cost money and time.
The Garden fulfills your wish. The Garden is the greek paradeisos. A zoological garden, a run with a hedge around it. It provides a habitat with limited range of movement. The limit is the self-determination.
The self-determination, to draw a line for yourself fulfills the wish.
The Tower looks into the unlimited, it can oversee all and nothing thus it may be afraid of many things. The Tower oversees the border around the own habitat. It is aware of the dreads beyond the run.
There is the unlimited, the limits of others, and your own limits. The own limit is your paradeisos, your territory and your own land.
The Tower protects your own limit. It can see its own limit, hence not beyond it. The Tower rules the own play space which is a safe space where you may play with thoughts, ideas and emotions.
In your own paradeisos, you can be who you were, are, and will be.
The Tower is your wish of being within your limits, and not stepping over it. Not against the limits of others, but the unlimited becomes your run. The Tower oversees the rules and the limits you give yourself.
Your secret wish is to rule the chaos - which means creating a way of life. Your order in life unites emotion and ratio: My Home is My Castle. Have it your way!
Your secret wish is that thinking and feeling are the same. Each feeling is a thought, and each thought is a feeling. There is no contradiction.
The thoughts give an order to the feelings, and feelings give an order to the thoughts. When they interpenetrate, you are free.
Life is your biography of inward interpenetration.
Hope this resonates with you!
zhadee
hello Anie,
we use the Dondorf's Lenormand for our readings.
1. Your secret wish - Cross.
2. I heart it - Ship.
3. I dislike it - Tower.
4. restraint - Stork.
5. fulfillment - Book
The Cross is your wish. The cross is mainly a crossing, an intersection, the meeting point of two lines: the horizontal line of suspension, the earthly dimension and the perpendicular line of the upright standing. The encounter is in one point.
The Cross stands freely in the room, it keeps the balance on a small floor space. It is like a man with outstretched arms. It is stretched like man between top and bottom, right and left, between the head and feet, between bondage and freedom, mental and physical, conscious and unconscious.
The Cross is a symbol of tension-filled contrasts, as axis of abscissas a sign of time and space. It signifies the four seasons and the four solstice points and therefore it is a symbol of life's conversions.
The Ship is how you like your wish: from the Ship's perspective, the Cross is a point of orientation. The Southern Cross "(Crux) is a constellation located in the southern sky in a bright portion of the Milky Way" [wikipedia]. The Ship needs to keep its balance, or else it capsizes. Or it will be overturned by waves and wind. It needs to keep its balance against inward and outer factors. The Ship is a mobile cross: the mast is like a man with outstretched arms. The Ship unifies contrasts: wind and water, wood and water, firm and liquid. The Ship has a conscious navigator, the rhythm of the sea follows the moon (unconscious).
The Ship likes the Cross, it gives the right direction.
The Tower is how you dislike your wish: the Tower does not move. It is rock solid and watches the distance. It rises up in the sky, and from its top you may also see the stars. The Tower looks like it was taller than the summit cross. The Tower says: we have overcome the Cross. We have been converted. We have left behind the Cross. The Cross is on a lower level.
From the Tower's perspective, the wish is a step backwards. Wanting the wish would be a perpendicular regression.
There is a flag on the Tower, not a Cross. It is not a church tower. The Tower consists only of the vertical axis, while the Ship moves along the horizontal line of the sea, which does not have heights. Beneath the Ship's is depth, over the Tower is the sky.
The Ship sails across the ocean, which is a symbol of emotion. The Tower is placed on a mountain, it is a symbol of thought. The Tower is fully ignorant of the ocean and emotion. The wish deals with emotions which the Tower neglects. Too much feeling, too little thought.
The Ship is a nutshell, cast to the wind and the water. An odyssey.
The Stork is the restraint. Outside factors you cannot control. It is placed in shallow water. One foot in the water, one foot in the air. They cross in one point. The Stork unifies the contrasts: ratio and emotion, water and air. It gets its sustenance from the water. But it may fly away any time, pulling out from the water, rising up into the air again. When the summer comes to a close, the Stork flies to the south. The Stork carries its cross inside, it knows its way.
It does not need the orientation from the Cross. The Stork lives in the rhythm of the sun, which gives orientation. The STork is its own zero point on the scale, it moves freely along the axis. It is its own golden mean.
The Stork says: we all have our own cross to bear. He is not willing to carry yours and he does not care about the cross you bear. This is all your responsibility.
The Book fulfills your wish. A closed book lies before us. We may open it and start to read, or we just finished it and we may put it back on the shelf. The Book offers two possible ways: you may keep it in your hands, or you may give it away. The german idiom 'in die eigene Hand nehmen / take matters in your hand' comes to mind. Which reads: to bear the cross. Dealing with the contradicting contrasts of life, the tension between heaven and earth, laughing and crying.
Your secret wish is to find your inner centre. The Cross works as a symbol of your inner centre. If you do not sustain the inner centre, you are not well-balanced. If you are not well-balanced, you'll falter and fall.
Your secret wish is to fill a neutral point.
The neutral point is the basis to reconcile the contradicting contrasts.
The Tower warns about outsourcing the neutral point.
The Ship sails along underneath the starry skies, which are external points.
Hope this resonates with you!
Ace
WOW! This is amazing, zhadee! We just moved into a new condo. It is a very scary thing: will I make enough to cover the costs and bills? I Thought I could but it has been a very expensive move. So I am scared. I want to live UNDER my means and my partner likes to spend--and be spontaneous! We are not fighting but I am struggling with it all. There is no predicting when and if and how much money will come in so I am always very nervous (even as I try to build up some margin.) Val tells me not to worry, but I do. I worry for US not just me. Will I make enough to make us comfortable? I want to control all event and the future. Which I can't do.
I also believe that wishes can come true--so we should wish very carefully.
And to be a good tarot reader, I spent a long time figuring out myself and my feelings and beliefs so they would not interfere with reading cards.
Your reading has resonated deeply with me, thank you for doing it.
barb
zhadee
Hi Barb,
thank you very much for your feedback.
From the reading, we perceived you as an 'overprotective mother' in the sense of Donald Winnicott's definition.
This means: the Tower needs to dominate in order to protect. The Paths react towards this by saying: we don't want to be watched. We need to go by our own ways.
We think that the Tower as your secret wish asks for the need of self-control, self-command, and self-mastery. It does not refer to the control of others.
For Winnicott, the self is a very important part of mental and emotional well-being which plays a vital role in creativity. He thought that people were born without a clearly developed self and had to "search" for an authentic sense of self as they grew. "For Winnicott, the sense of feeling real, feeling in touch with others and with one's own body and its processes was essential for living a life."
"Only the true self can be creative and only the true self can feel real."
Flames
Zhadee, this is an amazing thread! I'd very much love to sit. Thank you very much for this opportunity. 
zhadee
Zhadee, this is an amazing thread! I'd very much love to sit. Thank you very much for this opportunity.
Flames, we will read for you within the next couple of days
