Indi
No it's not because he's not cute (he is). It is probably because he is so endearing that he gets up my nose. The eternal wishy-washy sweetheart. Again, the choice was dictated by my present life situation, when I am having to decide something quite crucial, and it's agony. So looking at that little greeny thing makes me feel like I'm looking at a mirror - at least, emotionally!!!
- emotional atmosphere - oh, I don't know, maybe this, maybe that, I can't decide, what if, and so on and so forth. And let's squash someone's else's head, while we're trying to make up our minds, shall we?
- physical manisfestation: shall I take the carrot my employers have offered me, or shall I strike out on my own and follow my dreams? (and still have to take a part-time job, which might not be as good as this one, but then, this one is driving me nuts and I'm not giving it my best, on the other hand it's intellectually challenging, but also some of the subject-matter I have to deal with has started to bore me, blah blah blah). He slinks about my head that one...
- mental characteristics: indecision. This eventually leads to taking a decision by default, rather than thinking things through and being FOCUSSED.
- spirital characteristics: timorousness. He is there, however, to remind me to make up my mind and be done with it. To dare go after what I truly love. He's also there to make me realise I need balance and sufficient income to cover my basic needs.
- what makes me uncomfortable: what I see of myself in him - this to-ing and froing and not being brave.
- anything appealing or attractive? yes, his big sad eyes. He knows it is difficutl to remian in this no-man's land, he yearns to be bolder...
Any other ideas? I'd like to visualise him juggling those two balls, see where tht leads us.