it seems vain, leaving your Tarot journey behind for others to read after you are gone.
I’m not sure that’s everyone’s intention though. I’d be terrified of anyone reading my tarot or regular journals, whether I’m alive or dead...
A lot of it isn’t even comprehensible for people who don’t have access to my thoughts otherwise LOL.
For me it’s just a way to sort out thoughts. When I write something down I remember it, understand it better, can analyze it more deeply, and I can go back to it a bit later to see if new thoughts arise from reading what I thought an hour earlier. Since I was a child I’ve always been writing a lot, so it feels natural to me to process thoughts and feelings by having it written down so to speak. I've even had a psychologist tell me to write her e-mails every now and then before our meetings because she felt I was so much easier to understand and more honest in writing than when speaking.
I can admit that I have a little hobby project writing a tarot book in Swedish (oddly enough most of my tarot journals are in English. Don’t ask…) because there’s a huge lack of good Swedish tarot books. And believing (?) I can write a good one that is missing right now in this country, yes that IS vain!
LOL. That is something that is intended to be read by others when I am dead I guess… My journals though, nah, they’re just… Messy thoughts and emotions that help me process and remember stuff.
Edit: I do like that you're questioning the tarot journal though, Nisaba! It seems a little overhyped in the tarot community a lot of time so there's need for some critique.