Bonny
I find, after I do a couple of readings, I'm drained. Like, absolutely drained; I don't want to do anything anymore time of "drained". By the end of the day I'm absolutely exhausted (say, I'm learning to read cards on the weekend). I'm an engineering student and I know the amount of studies we do can be exhausting, but this is a different kind of exhaustion. It feels like the deck drains me every time I ask a question and interpret it.
Does anyone else find they have the same effect?
It's funny, I notice the spreads continue to tell me similar things as what previous psychics have said. Yes-No questions tend to predominating sided to one side of the spectrum. And I notice my deck has a personality (I would ask very simple questions such as "If my name A, B" or "Is my birthday X, Y, Z" it would respond with cards that suggest "maybe". Even when I ask my about my friends, same answer). I read in the text later (book supplied with the deck) and it talks about the deck having a sassy vibe. So, I wonder if it is just this deck in particular and how it connects to me?
And the level of detail, in discussions, that the cards suggest is unreal. I did a spread about my friend and his dog (Wolfie) and it talked about how Wolfie felt relieved, found his "savor" sort of deal when he was picked up from the pound when my friend first got him, and then there were cards about obedience, obsession, etc. On my friend's side there were feelings of regret, regret that he couldn't quite provide (always working) or a hindrance (he's constantly moving and rarely has someone to look after him so he's a bit of a burden at times).
Is there a concern with this "energy"? A friend that does read tarots tells me that I should watch myself when reading the cards too much.
Hi there,
For what it's worth, this is just to offer some observations.
Whether it's cards or career or research/study ...whatever it is , there is a 'relationship' that we build to this arena in life.
So there are thoughts, fears, reservations etc....
What's your 'relationship' with the cards?
Do you worry or fear of have conflicting concerns about contact with them (this is not giving the cards extra energy, it's just posing a question that might help you)...
It could be the underlying questions conscious or unconscious that you carry that come to your central nervous system when you use the cards and drain your energy?
The reading of the cards is a form of right brain processing for me which is a relief to the heavy left brain work I do as a researcher most days.
It's communicating with others in a counselling style mode to do good for others and for the planet ultimately.... Energising in the quantities that I do so.
Last thing ... If the rapport or relationships/boundaries with either reader or sitter gets awful for some reason, especially if theres sudden meanness or judgement or violence in other ways then it becomes draining.
Go well!!
Blessings,
Bonny
P.s there is a 'hyper-reality'that images of any kind challenge your perception with at any time... This happens via advertising , tv, etc etc as well.
Philosophers since third century have been warning that the space between the perceiver and the images seen is a space that can cause a flickering of discord for the perceiver because there is a mimetic going between in a richochet fashion , from image to mind of the perceiver and if this goes on too much can cause a sense of instability for the self. (Augustine of Hippo)