amyel said:
And I am having very ugly dreams. I only remember snippets, but they all involve really, really verbally loud screaming maches with my mother - who I actually have a loving, adult relationship with.
Oh, AG, if you are at all interested, I am a Cappy, with Aquarian moon & Libra rising. Hubs is Aquarian, and both my stepkids are Libra's! I suspect it's the Libra side that is .
I'm the capricorn w/aquarius rising , virgo moon , and Libra S/O!! LOL, and I think we were born in the same year too , amyel, if I remember right?
Your dreams sound like "dreams of contrary" , and I can't remember offhand what the dreams mean exactly! But it doesn't mean you're going to fight with your mom.
I've recently had nightmares too, (I only remember snippets also) 2 in the last week, and I don't have them too often, maybe 2 or 3 times a year total, that I remember. I've read a lot about dreams , and remember reading that nightmares can actually have positive physiological functions , kicking certain necessary or healing hormones into gear for instance ( or in the same way that people may "enjoy" seeing a horror movie,or riding a rollercoaster, it fulfills something for them, even relieves boredom).So I usually take nightmares in that regard and don't let them disturb me much after awakening.
I seem to have the reoccurring nightmare that a strange person is in my house. It's always a different person tho.
The first one was a strange , disturbed woman in my son's bathroom! I saw the light on in the bathroom and went to see who was in there.The second was a strange semi-conscious drug addict guy laying on my bedroom floor.
In both I got so scared that I physically screamed to wake myself up. In the second one, at the end I Knew I was dreaming but couldn't get away from the guy and out of my house so I purposely screamed because I knew it would wake me up! I think I've been interested in my dreams and dreaming self long enough to Know when I'm dreaming -- or at least recognize signs within my dreams when I become a little aware.
Anyhow, I DID just see the movie "The sixth sense"! (" I see dead people!" ) And I can't help Wondering because it certainly seems possible, and plausible.
As for my life in May? Well , I got a job that I really like beginning of April. But it's a new resterant and they aren't doing as well business-wise as they'd hoped or anticipated. So , everyone's hours are being cut big time . I will most likely be looking for a new job. Money has been a big problum , especially the last year or so! My S/O works but he doesn't make a lot now and can be very unreliable financially. I really really need to keep working and also find a better job. I dislike that I have to be so focused on the aquisition of money. But it seems the only answer right now.
I asked for a court proceeding for more child support because I needed the money so bad. I did get granted a little more. My younger son's father and ex-husband is planning on re-marrying in a few months and it bums me out. I can't seem to get over it.
Certain choices that I made in times of extreme stress still bother me...........