Mystic_Blue_Jay, I am just wondering if you are more in tune to
'writing about tarot' rather than 'reading tarot for others.'
Some people do much better putting their thoughts on paper rather than saying them
face to face to someone.
It doesn't make you less of a tarot expert if you feel uncomfortable reading in person.
You could give, even more, to the world of tarot if you were to, say, write a
tarot book, booklet, or design a tarot course sharing your learned knowledge
that you gained through all the years that you have studied tarot.
I wouldn't put pressure on yourself over it, or try to force yourself to read in person.
But if you feel it is important to you to read for others in person, then the only
way to learn to do that IS to keep trying it. The more you give live readings,
the more you will gain in confidence and experience and eventually you could
very well feel much more comfortable doing live readings.
Another thing, you could always call upon the Spirit World to read THROUGH you,
that way you don't have to worry about performing, because it isn't you or
your ego getting in the way! This is what I do 'before' each reading I do.
HUGS
tarotlyn