I "knew" when I was 9 years old that I would marry a man named Shawn. I still remember how it felt to have that information just pop into my head. And I always had an inclination that I'd have a boy and a girl. But that had nothing to do with tarot. I did marry my husband, Shawn, 10 years later- but instead of having a boy then a girl, I had a girl then a boy. But I felt my son's presence so strongly when I was pregnant for my daughter, I was sure that I was having a boy until about 6 months into my pregnancy when I was walking through a store and looked over at a little pink dress and the information just popped into my head, "No, you're having a girl."
I remember going to a tarot reader when I was 17 or 18 (and was just dating my husband at the time)... we both went and had our sessions separately. I went first and the lady told me that I would go to New York for work and meet a man, and have 2 children -possibly 3, she wasn't sure if this third entity would be another child or a deeply loved pet. My husband at the time was a different person-- young, had been through the ringer with many nasty girls that treated him badly, so needless to say he was a bit possessive over me -- she told him we wouldn't be together and he pressed for more information as to why because it put him into a panic, and I believe she told him that his possessiveness would drive me away -- so he pressed further, wanting to know if we would stay together if he changed his ways, etc. and she said yes, and he did and here we are. LOL Even though I hadn't really thought about leaving him or going to New York at the time, it seems like there was a very good probability that what she said could have happened. There was a time (before my husband ever came into the picture) when I was visiting New York where I thought, "I could live here." The tarot reader didn't know that when she gave me the reading!
So, if you take into consideration that I already 'knew' at 9 years old that I would marry a man named Shawn, then why would this tarot reader say to my husband that we wouldn't be together? There are a couple of options: 1) I would marry a different man by the name of Shawn, or 2) My husband had some issues that were pulling him off course at the time and those needed to be addressed. Because I don't doubt the information that popped into my own mind when I was 9... it came from another place outside of me, and you can feel the difference, or at least, I believe that I can. So, I actually trust those flashes of insight more than I trust my ability to read tarot, even though those flashes haven't occurred very often, and I do tarot pretty much everyday.
So my stance on this is that there are some things set in stone that we are perhaps "aiming" for and are necessary to the lessons we have to learn in our lives... but the choices we make help determine when or if we get to those things... you know, maybe it's fated for me to hit the lottery... but I never play the lottery. But then again, maybe some day I'll buy a ticket on a whim and hit it just when the time is right... I guess I don't totally believe in 100 percent completely free will and creating your destiny... I do feel that some things are just there waiting to happen *to* you. And maybe those things are there as a result of a string of choices you've made.
I can honestly say to you right now, that I have no inclination of any more major events that could occur in my life. If I wanted to know though, I would probably go to a psychic and see what that person says, because I just don't feel that I can see that far ahead (especially for myself!) with plain old tarot cards. It's the intuitive flashes that have occurred when I wasn't even trying that have been 100 percent accurate.
