Gods, I hate conforming!
But I fell into the consensus here!
Soul Shrinker
I got my Faeries today, from the beautiful peace_pixie, and sat down tonight with them to get to know them. Fortunately, I began reading the book at the
front for once
and did the exercises as instructed. Later, when I couldn't sleep, I got up and now it's a quarter to one in the morning and I've got to work tomorrow. Oh well. I've glanced at the posts that speak about the two cards I *chose*, but not read the others. I read the book meanings for my two cards after I did the exercise.
I'd like to stress that this is not my
least favourite card, but the one that makes me most uncomfortable.
1: The emotional atmosphere of the card is paralysing fear, that yawning horror and hopelessness in the face of a looming peril. Last night I was laying in bed and thought I heard someone in my house. I really thought I heard people whispering, and there were bangs and suchlike. The pounding, petrifying fear that I felt was the same fear that this card engendered in me.
2: The card is an intruder, someone you do NOT want to face at any cost because of the danger to yourself.
3: The Soul Shrinker is a multi-layered card, to me. At first, he is simply fear, yawning all-encompassing fear. But then one is driven to ask, "Why? Why fear that, or this, or the other?" He turned me, slowly, in the first few moments of our acquaintance, to face the figures of my fears and asked me why I feared them. I didn't want to admit why. I was too tired. I still am (not getting any less tired, not sleeping!)
4: SS is about my own illusions and therefore limitations. I don't even want to look at his face. He makes me face them, every time. It's like we're in a vacuum, a black universe where it's just me and him and my fears and he takes me by the shoulders and because I'm so paralysed with fear he turns me to face them . . . It's horrible.
5: Most uncomfortable - his hairlessness (hair hides people) and his liplessness (somehow untrustworthy) and his entirely black eye and espressionless face.
6: What appeals? He is sad
I want to make him happy.
The fact that he turned me to face what I fear has significance for me today, as I received a bit of a blow in the love affair department and I've been struggling within myself to find the best way to handle it. I'm doing well, but I'm afraid of some things that are best left unsaid right now. He made me face them. He is not compassionate, or kind. He has no emotions. He does what he does.
\m/ Kat