Hmm...
Well, what initially drew me to Tarot was that I was very religious and 'being psychic" was "of the devil". I was told that by my very religious grandmother.{I laugh now, but I was really confused/upset/etc}. I thought if I did Tarot, it wouldn't 'be as bad" as 'being psychic/empath/etc}.I have had abilities since I was very young. {My family does also}. On my birthfather's side, it is as far back as anyone can recall. I think how much more adjusted I would have been to this if I had been raised with others who openly did it and admitted they did. lol
Life got busy and I didn't really put much into it then. I had pretty active psychic abilities, so Tarot was really needed. I was using a book to try to learn all the meanings, but not really connecting to it. It worked well for personal readings though as it kept my emotions out of it...mostly.
Then in May 2009, I fell and broke my ankle and leg bone. I was unable to go up and down the 24 or so stairs that led upstairs to my bedroom, so I just stayed in bed most of the time. It really hurt to move anyway.
I had found a new tarot deck before falling, so brought it out. I then looked online for a tarot or psychic development forum and found Aeclectic Tarot Forums. I spent about a year doing reading exchanges and learning Tarot. I had a brain injury and a stroke, so I totally lost most of my memory and connecting to anything, Tarot or otherwise. I took a huge break to try to recover and we are now here. lol So, I guess the answer is that I was originally looking for a way to 'make it seem ok" to use my abilities. I joined this group and actually started reading for others because of the confidence I got here and it started from a painful accident with a broken ankle and leg bone.
Brightest Blessings!
BeyondtheVeil