Baltazar321
I have always been attracted to fortunetelling and all sort of readings - palm, dreams, tea leaves, runes, all sort of card readings, etc.
The day I got my first tarot deck was the day I first experienced sleep paralysis, where I felt the presence of someone, someone was grabbing and pulling my bedsheets and pillows away, and then I woke up and my bed was in perfect order and my pet chinchilla was undisturbed and sleeping as if nothing happened. Sleep paralysis was a frightening experience but I let it go and had a great time doing daily/weekly/yearly readings for myself and close friends and family. My readings were usually very accurate.
Half a year ago I got a new and more detailed tarot deck. Also, gave me very accurate readings. I still have my old tarot deck hidden in my drawer. My life was going very well, had a great loving boyfriend, nice job, good social life, then had a great Christmas and New Year's Eve. My tarot cards yearly reading depicted 3 of swords (heartbreak, sorrow) in January. I thought it was no way my boyfriend would hurt me or break up with me, he is too happy with me, he gave me a beautiful Christmas present and we were so happy during New Year's in Italy. Had lots of flights cancelled and delays, cried from stress and thought that 3 of swords was about me and being forced to stay in airports for a few days due to snowstorms. I finally came home from holidays few days ago and my boyfriend comes over to break up with me. Says he is not getting any younger, I am his first girlfriend, he needs to experience more relationships before he finds the perfect one to settle with. Of course I was shocked and feeling quite broken, and impressed with my cards. The next day I had a bit of valerian root pills in the morning to calm myself, had a few glasses of wine in the evening and then went to sleep. I was ready to go to sleep, turned to my right side and I see a female ghost figure with long hair and long layers of clothes appear next to my window and closet right in front of me... It was nothing like sleep paralysis that I've had several times before. I could jump out of my bed, scream and run out of my door. I noticed as I was opening the door, the ghost was fading away. I scared my flatmate who was in the kitchen and says she'll call a priest if I want.
Of course sleep paralysis and hallucinations happen to most of us, nothing uncommon, especially during nighttime and before falling asleep. However, I also realised that that night between the window and the closet were my tarot cards hanged in a pouch. Also, I live in ancient historic building in which probably thousands have lived in before me.
What if I summoned a spirit to give me predictions and it felt so bad about what it predicted me that it appeared the next day after break up? Or what if I attracted a spirit and it will be haunting me now?
Should I just get rid of my tarot cards? Should I quit doing readings and trying to interfere with my future like this?
I really enjoy readings, they inspire me and make me cautious but I don't want to have spirits watching me. I haven't slept well and without lights for the past few days.
I really want more opinions, advices and help making decisions from other tarot readers in regards to this.
The day I got my first tarot deck was the day I first experienced sleep paralysis, where I felt the presence of someone, someone was grabbing and pulling my bedsheets and pillows away, and then I woke up and my bed was in perfect order and my pet chinchilla was undisturbed and sleeping as if nothing happened. Sleep paralysis was a frightening experience but I let it go and had a great time doing daily/weekly/yearly readings for myself and close friends and family. My readings were usually very accurate.
Half a year ago I got a new and more detailed tarot deck. Also, gave me very accurate readings. I still have my old tarot deck hidden in my drawer. My life was going very well, had a great loving boyfriend, nice job, good social life, then had a great Christmas and New Year's Eve. My tarot cards yearly reading depicted 3 of swords (heartbreak, sorrow) in January. I thought it was no way my boyfriend would hurt me or break up with me, he is too happy with me, he gave me a beautiful Christmas present and we were so happy during New Year's in Italy. Had lots of flights cancelled and delays, cried from stress and thought that 3 of swords was about me and being forced to stay in airports for a few days due to snowstorms. I finally came home from holidays few days ago and my boyfriend comes over to break up with me. Says he is not getting any younger, I am his first girlfriend, he needs to experience more relationships before he finds the perfect one to settle with. Of course I was shocked and feeling quite broken, and impressed with my cards. The next day I had a bit of valerian root pills in the morning to calm myself, had a few glasses of wine in the evening and then went to sleep. I was ready to go to sleep, turned to my right side and I see a female ghost figure with long hair and long layers of clothes appear next to my window and closet right in front of me... It was nothing like sleep paralysis that I've had several times before. I could jump out of my bed, scream and run out of my door. I noticed as I was opening the door, the ghost was fading away. I scared my flatmate who was in the kitchen and says she'll call a priest if I want.
Of course sleep paralysis and hallucinations happen to most of us, nothing uncommon, especially during nighttime and before falling asleep. However, I also realised that that night between the window and the closet were my tarot cards hanged in a pouch. Also, I live in ancient historic building in which probably thousands have lived in before me.
What if I summoned a spirit to give me predictions and it felt so bad about what it predicted me that it appeared the next day after break up? Or what if I attracted a spirit and it will be haunting me now?
Should I just get rid of my tarot cards? Should I quit doing readings and trying to interfere with my future like this?
I really enjoy readings, they inspire me and make me cautious but I don't want to have spirits watching me. I haven't slept well and without lights for the past few days.
I really want more opinions, advices and help making decisions from other tarot readers in regards to this.