Gryff, you are so brave and beautiful.
You know adventures like the one you described are what I always thought I'd do someday. And I have little kids and a husband. Say no more, right?
This oracle, this new one is coming to me at a time when everything I thought I knew about life is getting turned around and I'm a little kid again trying to figure it all out, wondering if the Universe really does see me, really does care, and what my purpose here is all about.
I see my faults, my imperfections, I see where I need to grow. I know that Spirit is there, damn I do this work and I see miracles and tell people things that surprise me sometimes. And I still feel so...confused. People expect us to have the answers, and I can play the all knowing Oracle just fine. But I also tell my clients...the magic is in the surprise of not knowing. When you come here/to me you can make positive changes based on new knowledge and knowing, you stir the pot. But the real magic happens when the Surprises start to flow, stuff no one could have ever seen coming.
I wonder if this little kit is the start of a new oracle for me. I don't know if I can just toss these items into MoonBell and say...there we go, more stuff to play with. Because this is a new chapter, a new phase, a new time where the woman I am today is not the same woman as last week!
My husband and I are still dancing around the Divorce word. And believe me there are times I think ok. Let's just chuck it. And then I look at the kids and I think, are we really done?
I think that have never been more terrified. Honestly.
My friend Scion says that you are either moving toward something or turning away from something. I want to be turning toward something. I want to leave fear behind and turn towards faith and love.
Maybe this Oracle is about that.