Briar Rose, how cool that you kept such great notes on everything for years. I'm not much of a note taker in this sense, but I so wish I had done so now, all these years later. It must be interesting to go back and read through it and see your spiritual journey there in words and drawings!
Great idea for you too, Ivana.
When we were having to put in a well, one of the well companies who came by to give us an estimate used dowsing to find the best place to get water. It was way cool to watch him and the first time I had ever been around a dowser. Very interesting art that! We didn't hire him--but he was correct! I pointed the area out to the man we hired (he did NOT believe in dowsing though!
) and he agreed it looked like a good place to dig. It was. We got water at 33 feet as opposed to all of our neighbors who also were putting in wells. In our area, 24 wells were being dug that season, and we hit water at 33 feet where everyone else were in the hundreds of feet! I think that dowser knew his stuff!
Ivanna, I'm not sure if you are of any religious faith, such as Phoenix11 mentioned she is, and I am also a Catholic. But, you can also incorporate some of your way of life into your path. I am a huge believer in prayers for a sort of "spell" magic. I pray the rosary mostly-and include many of the wishes of others into my prayers. I'm sure the Catholic nuns and priests don't realize how the faith actually is so similar to the path of the witch-but if you look closely there are many similarities really. So, perhaps taking a look at the things you know well can be of a help to doing the magic spells and meditations you are interested in developing.
The rosary prayer for me was another avenue to really get into my psychic-medium business. I always remember the dead in my prayers and the dying, and often see and hear spirits coming to me and thanking me for my prayers. (again, I'm sure Sr. Mary Elizabeth and the other nuns who taught me for years would spin knowing I took this path and credit much of it to the rosary recitation!
). But, do look towards the path you've taken so far in your life--from the time you were a child and now as an adult. Incorporate what you're familiar with and comfortable with into it, and this will also help it to flow easier for you when learning 'new' ideas.
as for books to 'guide' you along...if you are not wanting to spend much money on the books, I would highly recommend Scott Cunningham then. The books Phoenix mentioned are wonderful books to get started with. Also, check out the herbal magazines in bookstores. One of my favorites is Mother Earth News.
yeah, and I am a good one! 