Am I going to miscarry this pregnancy?

[MDredhead]

Dear MD, I know this is probably close to impossible but please try to stop being so anxious. The best way to try and help your situation is to try to stay calm, non-stressed.

Cards: Death Rx, 9S Rx, HP Rx.

I agree that it looks like a crisis averted, death that will not be death. But, you need to do what you can to pull out of that circle of torturing thoughts and nightmarish anxiety (9S). Like you said, your intuition is muddied (HP Rx) due to the anxiety. Doctors are not gods and don't know everything, in particular those who just breeze in without knowing you of even the machinery properly.

Maybe pull another thread to see what you can do to calm down and nurture yourself?

All the mothers I know (appr. 8 people) had their first baby around or beyond 35, my youngest brother was born when my mum was 35+, and a colleague of mine had her second baby at 40+. It is by far NOT uncommon these days, you're not a freak, a failure or anything of that sort with your age. The history of course is what it is, but don't add to the burden with thinking about your age. And YOU are not failing your partner - it's the conman agency that failed you both. Don't internalise that fault!

I'm not a religious type but sending you all the best thoughts and wishes.

Thank you. Yes, I know many women who START their families at 40 because they can finally afford them. I guess its not the norm here. I definitely think I ill get a second opinion if the blood work looks good.

Its a good idea to see what I can do to be less anxious. I have had so much anxiety for so long I don't even think about it at this point. It just is.

 

[Indygoflame]

First and foremost I am truly sorry you have had to endure so many heartbreaking disappointments. As a mother, I can say for sure nothing is guaranteed. Having a healthy child doesn't mean they will stay that way and vice versa. Speaking from experience on that one.



Before I forget my train of thought, I would advise you to see a specialist that deals with high risk pregnancies only. Now with that said, I should also say that I don't read reversals. However, I would give more weight to your dream of a baby boy. The high priestess who for me represents things unknown and she is reversed spilling all her knowledge. (I'm a newbie). Death as well as 9 of swords is reversed indicating for me a small transformation that will end worries.


If I were you, I would definitely try and relax. I would also be tying up the prayer line to all of heaven to bless this pregnancy. As with anything in life, nothing is guaranteed. I would put my energy into exhausting all possibilities rather than listening to one person. I've had my share of doctors try and take away my hope regarding my child, but that was simply not an option. I also don't believe in coincidence. The fact you found out you were pregnant shortly after the adoption fell through should give you pause. Pray and seek divine guidance if you can. And try and rest and keep taking care of yourself. I'm sending you and your family my love in these trying times. Hope this helps.

 

[MDredhead]

First and foremost I am truly sorry you have had to endure so many heartbreaking disappointments. As a mother, I can say for sure nothing is guaranteed. Having a healthy child doesn't mean they will stay that way and vice versa. Speaking from experience on that one.



Before I forget my train of thought, I would advise you to see a specialist that deals with high risk pregnancies only. Now with that said, I should also say that I don't read reversals. However, I would give more weight to your dream of a baby boy. The high priestess who for me represents things unknown and she is reversed spilling all her knowledge. (I'm a newbie). Death as well as 9 of swords is reversed indicating for me a small transformation that will end worries.


If I were you, I would definitely try and relax. I would also be tying up the prayer line to all of heaven to bless this pregnancy. As with anything in life, nothing is guaranteed. I would put my energy into exhausting all possibilities rather than listening to one person. I've had my share of doctors try and take away my hope regarding my child, but that was simply not an option. I also don't believe in coincidence. The fact you found out you were pregnant shortly after the adoption fell through should give you pause. Pray and seek divine guidance if you can. And try and rest and keep taking care of yourself. I'm sending you and your family my love in these trying times. Hope this helps.

Thanks for this. We got the word from the sono today that its definitely not growing and is not viable. Stopped at around 5.5 weeks and should be 9 now. There is just no way my dates are that far off.

In light of this, I think the HP rev was telling me that I wasn't listening to my intuition as I didn't want to consider that this would not work out. And Death rev does seem to be saying that a major change will not take place. This is a literal "death" as well as the little embryo just didn't make it.

I am very sad, of course. I have to decide on surgery or just to wait and see if nature does its job. Its not a nice place to be.

 

[Indygoflame]

I am so so very sorry. Truly I am. You are such a strong person. I pray that you get rest and focus on taking care of yourself. Mind, body and soul. I will definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[lighthousekeeper]

I'm really sorry to hear your update. I wish the best for you, please let us know how things go