MoonMaiden said:
Sophie-David,
I have read about your majors journey, and thank you. I would most certainly like to see it posted here. Although there are many things I could think to ask, I began to wonder about one thing.
I believe that in another post I mentioned Neville Goddard. His path was one of present-time partaking of what we now think of as a future desire. Please don't think I am trivializing your work in any way, as I am sure that I don't fully understand it. It seems like I should mention this anyway, just in case it helps.
I definitely appreciate your feedback since it helps me to question my assumptions. I am not familiar with the work of Neville Goddard - my proposed reading list seems to expand daily! But I think that it is very important to let the process take place naturally and not force it. It is the journey or process that is important, not the end in itself.
MoonMaiden said:
Have you meditated on what your life would be like if the Creative Beloved were already yours? Not just meditating but assimilating her and proceeding from that place. What do you anticipate that the change would bring? How are you now different? Neville's teaching was that to have a thing be part of our lives we must think FROM the new situation, not OF it. Everything we now have we interact with differently. I think it was your word "desire" that made me think of this. When you learned the tarot for her, she assimilated it through you. What is the mirror of that behaviour? How did this take place with Sophie?
What I have learned from my rather superficial study of Jung and his school, which has only reinforced what I have experienced, is that is important to treat these internal entities with the same respect as one would a person. As one would in a religion, Tarot, or other esoteric study, I proceed with faith in the model. These models are but metaphors, tools to use to develop one's understanding and growth. I would go further, and suggest that so-called "objective reality" is in itself but a model, also merely a metaphor for what lies beyond. But in a part of myself I try to remain a skeptic, so that none of these models would become a prison, but a means to an end - even if the end is also deliberately vague and tentative.
Now, I could consciously set up a meditational scenario or program a dream in which I united with or assimulated that part of myself that I am calling Eirian. This would counter Jung's guidance, to treat the entity with the same respect as I would a person. But Jungian or not, I would view this type of action as an internal rape - I think that I would be risking psychic disassociation, or at least a severe setback in growth to do so. I am guided in this conservative understanding by my dreams, by Tarot, and by my intuition in general - which in a sense means I am guided by the entities themselves. Just as in the world above, loving relationships within oneself need to be guided by sensitivity, respect and timing.
I know that there is a fair degree of integration there already, and it seems to grow bit by bit, both in Eirian and the part of Self that the ego identifies with. I mean that both these parts of the Self seem to grow more whole as they grow closer together. But I also sense that not all things are ready for the psychic union that is represented by a sexual union with the second Beloved. Other parts of the psyche need to come into balance first, particularly the complimentary masculine energy that would sustain an even more powerful expression of the feminine. Because we seem to be going off topic I will PM you.
MoonMaiden said:
I will stop here. She is yours. She is you. The only thing that makes it seem that she is separate is your own belief that she is. Perhaps this can be molded to your own thought patterns, as I am sure that you realize this already, but maybe not quite like this.
I think that your question actually ties back neatly to the subject of this thread, Materialism or the Devil. If the internal enemy of our growth and creativity cannot succeed by being a pessimistic conservative, hoping we will give up before we even try, then encouraging us into radical expansionism can be just as effective. BTW, I am not suggesting that you are in any way speaking for the internal Devil, MoonMaiden
, just that I need to seek a path of balance.