Luna's Crone
I had a wee spot of brain injury in which i lost my soul, spirituality and my ability to not dream of relatives within 3 generations of my life dying. This part i don't mind. I did not dream when my nephew OD, my aunt died (one of the people closest to me) and my brother's death (which doesn't count cuz we couldn't figure out how he lived the last 5 years with about 4-6% of his heart alive). This was after my injury. My intuition has been getting stronger over the years (my 8 years ago was the injury). But my soul and spirituality never returned.
I never noticed my soul until i wasn't there anymore, but it was devastating when i finally realized that my spirituality was really gone. The injury was near my primitive brain.
I was hoping I could find a new place in my brain where it would relearn my spirituality but I have pretty much given up hope.
Like I have know clue how anyone can find tarot spiritual. Although the person i am reading for may have that brought up in her reading, its not the card itself thats spiritual. Or you know what i mean. I hoped it would help, but just feels dumb.
My moments of spirituality is being out with Gaia or Luna. Rocks, trees, and Geology right now is really helping me to be a little spiritual. Also I will pull an oracle card for a moment of spirituality. It doesn't last long, but it helps, especially if i can journal a bit on it. But then its gone, like in a puff of smoke.
it's just gone and i am lost. Gaia and Luna have been my mother and sister since i was little. That is why my connection still remains deep with them.
Has anyone run into something like this before. It was very disconcerting to know my soul and spirituality lived in a physical space so to speak. The funny thing is, now that i don't predict when they die, They appear in my dreams alot now. Especially my brother and my uncle who wasn't even a blood relative. But i loved him like a dad.
It was funny. I didn't predict that my aunt was gonna die, but she came to me that night all mad and said she couldn't find heaven, so where is it. I said just look and there it is. she said oh, never heard from again. although she did appear in the dreams where my mom was trying to get every not to like me and throw out of the family. That was 3 long dreams. in the end it was unanimous i stay in. Thank god haven't heard from my mom since then. But I have from the hated monster my dad. One day in the car i was driving along and out of the clear blue sky (brain and mouth blab) I said "I love you dad and I forgive you" Where hell did that come from.
well i said alot more than i meant to.
thanks for listening.
Jo Ann
I never noticed my soul until i wasn't there anymore, but it was devastating when i finally realized that my spirituality was really gone. The injury was near my primitive brain.
I was hoping I could find a new place in my brain where it would relearn my spirituality but I have pretty much given up hope.
Like I have know clue how anyone can find tarot spiritual. Although the person i am reading for may have that brought up in her reading, its not the card itself thats spiritual. Or you know what i mean. I hoped it would help, but just feels dumb.
My moments of spirituality is being out with Gaia or Luna. Rocks, trees, and Geology right now is really helping me to be a little spiritual. Also I will pull an oracle card for a moment of spirituality. It doesn't last long, but it helps, especially if i can journal a bit on it. But then its gone, like in a puff of smoke.
it's just gone and i am lost. Gaia and Luna have been my mother and sister since i was little. That is why my connection still remains deep with them.
Has anyone run into something like this before. It was very disconcerting to know my soul and spirituality lived in a physical space so to speak. The funny thing is, now that i don't predict when they die, They appear in my dreams alot now. Especially my brother and my uncle who wasn't even a blood relative. But i loved him like a dad.
It was funny. I didn't predict that my aunt was gonna die, but she came to me that night all mad and said she couldn't find heaven, so where is it. I said just look and there it is. she said oh, never heard from again. although she did appear in the dreams where my mom was trying to get every not to like me and throw out of the family. That was 3 long dreams. in the end it was unanimous i stay in. Thank god haven't heard from my mom since then. But I have from the hated monster my dad. One day in the car i was driving along and out of the clear blue sky (brain and mouth blab) I said "I love you dad and I forgive you" Where hell did that come from.
well i said alot more than i meant to.
thanks for listening.
Jo Ann